Kissy kissy bang bang

2010-03-01T03:56:00.001+08:00

Moved to crimineldepasserelle.tumblr.com
See you baby.

Miss me.

2010-02-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

Remember the other time when you were hugging me?

You told me you wanted to grow old with me.

And I smiled back at you because that's what I wanted too.

Starlight, starbright, the first star I see tonight

2010-02-15T04:13:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Mai, Palat & Dinie ;D

Aww went to Palat's birthday party down at Sembawang & it was awesome. Hah. And since it's Valentine's, I got a necklace from prettyboy! *thumbs up*

And lastly, without you; tomorrows wouldn’t be worth the wait & yesterdays, wouldn’t be worth remembering.

Xoxo

Cupid, we need to talk about your aim

2010-02-09T14:19:00.004+08:00

Why do I care so much about you, after all you've done to me? You're just another stupid teenage idiot. But you were always my idiot, & that's what counts. God, I used to believe in you. I really did. But I don't know what to believe anymore. I hope you're happy. Just when I thought everything would be okay, you threw it all away. You changed before my eyes. I want to be done with you. But I can't say goodbye. This might seem backwards, but I don't know what hurts more right now, the possibility that you never cared about me at all, or the possibility that you still do.

I am nervous. I'm afraid. But I will stand here in the white hot heat of you. I will play Russian roulette. I will tell jokes I'm not sure you'll find funny. I will hold on until there is no more reason to. And in the end, I will break the stars & resurrect the sun.

I am utterly confused. At times in the past I have felt lost but have always been able to find the path back home. Now, I don’t even know where I call home. I am back & forth from destination to destination, a nomad. I don’t feel like I truly belong anywhere, or with anyone. I am unclear of who I am & who I want to be, who I truly care about or who I just want to keep around for comfort. I have never been so baffled. It keeps me up at night & wakes me early in the morning. My mind feels as if it is in a race with no finish line. All I want are answers but none is to be found. I don’t know what I want or what is right for me, things seem to be crumbling at a pace that I cant keep up with. I need to press pause on the remote that is my life. Everything seems to be moving at a fast-forwarded pace and my mind is tired of running. I need peace. I don’t know where to find it. It isn’t here and it is no longer at “home.” I need a rewind button because the past needs to be reworked, it fucked up my present. I don’t know where to go from here but I do know that I need rest.

I miss everything that used to make me feel safe, I want it back.

2010-02-06T17:07:00.001+08:00

I need something strong.
Will be at Tara's.

When we were young, we didn't give a damn

2010-01-27T09:04:00.002+08:00

I need guidance.

Fvck everything.

Fvck love.

2010-01-25T15:00:00.003+08:00

Bottom picture: Favourite picture ever.

Hahahaha, Arep cuuuuuuuute!

Come on baby, let's dance,

Mango called me to work.

How nice is this.

How great is life.

I like (Y)

Hahaha, yes, (Y)

Shut up ah Arep.

I know you'll laugh when you see that.

Oh yeah.

That boy spinned me around.

Like 4539082 times.

Arep, I won't forgive you for that.

H-m-p-h-!

2010-01-22T17:35:00.001+08:00

YOU SHOULD SERIOUSLY WAAAAATCH!

Arep called me yesterday at 2.30pm & asked me out to watch Tooth Fairy. Apprently since Erah's sick (get well soon baby), I decided to meet Arep instead. Checked the online timing & it's either 3.25pm or 5.30pm.

Dad was being a bitch.

So I told Arep to catch the 3.25pm show. AND HONESTLY YESTERDAY WAS REALLY THE DAY I TOOK THE SHORTEST TIME TO GET MYSELF READY.

Took a cab & met Arep at Amk Hub. He already bought the tickets, so I bought the popcorn & we headed to hall 6 (he was all excited about it cause it's his favourite number, 6 & he was making a big deal out of it).

And............ it went fantastic :)

Till he poked my eye.

"Oh ya, while laughing at The Rock, my hands were like flying all around an i accidentally poke Izah's eye. She called me bodoh after that. Sedih sia. OMG Sorry! Haha. The 13th time i apologized okay!" - Arep's blog.

Met his friends after that & then Arep sent me home & he went back to lepak again -.- Hahaha.

But seriously people, Tooth Fairy is really an awesome show! *3 thumbs up*

Thanks Rep, for everything. I had an aweeeesome day :D Saaaayang you. HAHA

One love

2010-01-20T22:17:00.008+08:00

Things didn't go the way they wanted to.

Because we thought her ego was huge. But his was greater than the universe. All along she kept her cool, all along she bottled up every single thing he did wrong, with the thought he'll realise & change for the better. Unfortunately he was feeling more insecure about her where abouts, about her other boy friends who kept asking her out, kept messaging her, kept wanting her.

To him it was unfair, to her it was struggle.

To him it is a lie, to her it is life.

What more can a girl do, letting out how she feels towards the man she's in love with, the man she looks forward to meeting, the man whom she thought will be her everything. When in the end all she get was hearing him shout.

She told him all about the other boys, she admits it was tough to change. To change for the better.

But he didn't know she's willing to.

So what if there are other boys out there? So what if they want to get her attention? So what if they run the extra mile for her?

What happened when she said,

"I can't imagine being without you".

Just because of other boys, he's blind. He's blind to see she's falling for him instead of them. He's blind to see he's the one with the ego. He's blind to see he wasn't there for her when she needed him the most.

What happened to you dear boy? She was strong enough to breathe in a situation so cliche. She picked herself up cause there was just no one to help her. She cried so hard knowing it won't go to a waste.

"I never felt this lost in life before".

And he made her decide when he knows her bad condition? Just so he can carry on with his life?

There ain't no reason things are that way. It's how they have always been & they intend to stay. She can't explain why they live that way. They do it everyday.

Open your eyes boy, she can't feel love anymore.

Someone run a mile, send roses by her door, cry her a river, escape with her... anything to make her believe again.

P.S. She misses him.

2010-01-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

It's time baby, it's time.

Today is Monday, & I almost got hired. And she was asking, "Do you happen to know your Poly schedule?". What am I supposed to reply? We haven't even get our posting results! And she went, "Aww we need to prepare our roaster".

JUST because of that, I'm not hired. Because BEFORE that, she said, "Perfect! When can you start work?".

Let's just hope for Evita Peroni this time round.

Okay, enough about that.

2010-01-17T02:58:00.003+08:00

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart.

2010-01-16T02:35:00.001+08:00

But in the end I can still feel the pain – every time I hear your name

2010-01-13T16:17:00.003+08:00

You tend to feel sucky when you did well but your parents aren't proud enough.

And I didn't know after all this, when I look back at it I start to laugh.

I cried thinking that I did effing bad (when I didn't even look at the slip). Adam was the first one to see my grades & Erah was the first to open up the MOE form that was given to me.

Hahaha.

So on the results night itself, we went for shesha. Even when there's just 4 of us, it feels like there's 14.

Rusydi didn't fetch me, so I had to catch the last train.

Hal & I stopped at Amk & we headed to the bus stop waiting for 88.

On the board: 88 Arriving

(phew) So we sat for 10 minutes & Hal checked the board again. 88's not even in the list. We panicked, of course. Cause I didn't want to waste my money just for a freaking cab. We crossed the road (& until I finally decided we should flag a cab), we crossed back.

Hahaha. We seriously look like idiots running. Drunk ones, to be specific.

Gosh tomorrow sleepover at Erah's place? Ahh can't wait!

Plus Tara said Dorothy Perkins' having a sale.

Lucky the 200 cheque's with me. (heheheheh)

Someone take a picture, so I won't forget him

2010-01-07T15:04:00.005+08:00

Rusydi fetched me from home & we headed to Fish & Co for lunch! Yummy, but surprisingly we didn't get to finish our meals. That was one thing. Next, Di asked the waitress, "Do you accept Nets here?" & she said no.

*cricket sound*

But of course he saved the day by going to the ATM to withdraw some money. And we went to River Island. My wallet's not there anymore :(

Okay we had some window shopping but his window shopping was seriously irritating cause we kept going in & out of Topman just to see his blazer again & again. Can't deny, he looks good in it. And he was doing his catwalk. (Omg)

Mum called to check out on me (haha) & she wanted Di to send me home early. I didn't even bother to tell Di. Heheh.

After making multiple appearances in Topman, we headed to the car & drove off to Marina Barrage, just in time for the sunset :)

It was beautiful. There were some families flying their kites up high in the sky, & the atmosphere was just great. (No irritating students - no offence people)

Aww I miss that. Heh.

At about 10pm we headed home.

Since I personally deny to accept the fact that the O level results are going to be out next Monday, I finally heard it on the radio when we were in the car. God dammit.

The first thing I was thinking about was surprisingly, my hair. I wouldn't want to create any problems. So I should text Tara soon about spraying my hair black. Or I meant, our hair.

The next thing I know when I called Di at almost midnight, he told me he accidentally slept while driving. And I went, @?#@$*@^>)#!!!

And why oh why Famous Amos cookies taste so greatttt I want more! Well I had it for breakfast & it did spoil my day cause now the pack's finish, I seriously am craving for those cookies.

So currently the Polytechnics are having much of a competition having their open house all at the same period of time. Oh what the hell. I approached Hal & profusely beg him to accompany me to both NP & TP's open house since Di's booking in today. At first thought I wanted to go with mum, but I guess she'll be busy babysitting Faris.

I need to go to NP & TP's open house!

I.. just.. need.. to....

Oh well Hal was blabbering about our ez-link fares which is now considered adult fares. Heh. I was thinking, if you're eager enough to turn into young men & women then be eager enough to accept the deal. Yes I know it sucks, if you're unhappy about it live elsewhere for all I care.

Did I tell you O level results are going to be out next Monday? This means,

1) Need to pamper self for the next few days till Monday 2pm.

2) Shall eat as much as I want after getting my results.

3) Get ready to receive numerous calls or text messages from random people.

4) Whatever the outcome is, Izah, don't.. cry.

Hahahahaha I don't know why, but I feel excited+happy+scared+like laughing.

Either good or bad (it'll be good, insyaallah), I'll be meeting Di on Tuesday & we can escape from this sickening reality, again.

And fvck yeah, Cleo's January issue got me laughing. In a good way, haha. Even Di read it. (Haha)

Di's already on his way to camp :(

2010-01-04T22:22:00.006+08:00

Eh Ayie! >> Jorgen Von Strangle (oʞzɥɔnɯ ıɹıɐɥ) says:
sch skrng da start lmbt
everyday
Myza says:
kol berapa
Eh Ayie! >> Jorgen Von Strangle (oʞzɥɔnɯ ıɹıɐɥ) says:
lmbt 10 mins
-.-
Myza says:
HAHA
gerek
Eh Ayie! >> Jorgen Von Strangle (oʞzɥɔnɯ ıɹıɐɥ) says:
lol
tadie Hannah jakun siakk, dpt dudok atas utk EFL

2010-01-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

Me: Sezairi Pes C seh.

Mum: Ohh

Me: Rusydi cakap dia kental.

Mum: Abeh Rusydi pes apa?

Me: Pes A ah abeh?

You stop I start

2010-01-03T13:14:00.004+08:00

"Now when the love is right somehow you just know it

because you hold it tight you don't wanna let it go

& it's so deep inside of you that you just can't take it cause it fills up your heart

& you just can't replace it.

It's true love when you say you need me like I need you

& you can't be without me like I can't be without you.

It's true love when we spend time talking on the phone

cause when we're not around each other we don't wanna be alone.

Grab your lover by the hand & say that you understand

how love really works.

So good that it hurts"

But I'll be true to you.

2009-12-30T19:00:00.002+08:00

R.I.P TO THE BEST DRUMMER EVER…. I really don’t know what to say I am just shocked my heart is filled woth sorrow I don’t think any other drummer will ever be able to replace him…. I don’t really understand how this could happen and I am exhausted from all the death this year He was just 28 for god sakes much too young I am just right now at the brink of crying…. It really makes one realize just fragile our lives are…. His death definitely has an impact on me…. This is the man I idolize along with his fellow bandmates I am just down right now…. I feel the waterworks coming on….

- Tara's tumblr.

Yep, I feel for you Tara.

(Chey macam paham)

2009-12-29T01:28:00.004+08:00

And since I saw Fasha posted this in her blog... (hehehe)

I confess that in 2009, I have…
(x) stayed single for the whole year
(x) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else’s heart
( ) had a stalker
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone
(x) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(x) done something you’ve regretted
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went camping
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I…
(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
( ) slept under the stars
(x) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
(x) met someone who changed your life
(x) met one of your idol
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
( ) almost died
(x) given up something important to you
(x) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
(x) stayed up til sunrise
(x) cried over the silliest thing
( ) was sometimes never home on weekends
(x) got into a car/bike accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
( ) had someone close to you die
(x) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
(x) went to the beach with your best friend
(x) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

And till then, I hope 2010's a better year.

2009-12-28T00:51:00.004+08:00

We understand each other & we care about each other.

And I believe that years from now,

we still will.

So let's say that theoretically I really like you,
& theoretically even though it sounds moronically cliché & overused, you give me butterflies.
And just for kicks, lets add that all in theory of course you may be one of the most wonderful people I have ever met, & hypothetically my heart beats ten times faster when I see you.
Do you think that you would supposedly (& in the most theoretical sense) feel the same way?

As soon as you start to have romantic feelings for someone, you’re fucked.
You & this person are going to hurt one another.
Even if you are together for the rest of your life, you’re going to feel indescribable pain.
When you’re in, no matter how deep, you’re in.

"You’re letting him think you’re emotionally available. You’re letting him think he has a chance.
And there is nothing worse in the world that thinking you have a chance, when you really don’t.
-Grey’s Anatomy"

If I knew then what I know now, things would be different.
But what can I say, it happens like this most of the time for me.

2009-12-15T22:48:00.004+08:00

Bless me.

I don't know why but I have to admit this, I have very beautiful friends.

And to my baby Attica, happy birthday (:

2009-12-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

Thanks people, I love it.

To those who wished me especially Zul Pendek who caught my attention cause he sort of wish me in every way, yeah THANK YOU!

The perfume, the watch, the brownie cake, the photo frame, the tv controller, the movie marathon, the kisses, the hugs, the cute cupcake & a candle, the card, the princess hair band, the Kinder Bueno, the Eatzie Gourmet cake, the 50 bucks, the Roche, the bag of shirts, the night...

I'll remember it :)

Xoxo, birthday girl.

2009-12-06T23:01:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for our movie marathon today.

I can't wait for the surprise.

I can't wait to eat.

I can't wait to meet the new dude.

I can't wait to see him skate.

I can't wait for Rusydi to come home.

I can't wait to be back in love.

I can't wait to kiss my little nephew as soon as he wakes up.

I can't wait to hear his voice.

I can't wait for my birthday.

I can't wait for random texts from random people.

I can't wait to pick up lots of calls.

I can't wait to reply texts.

I can't wait to have new clothes.

I can't wait to have a watch.

I can't wait to meet Feiq for Starbucks.

I can't wait to meet my girlfriends.

I can't wait to hug them.

No, I can't wait.

2009-12-04T01:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY FEIQ!

Riots

2009-12-03T20:06:00.004+08:00

We're all pretty bizzare.

Some of us are just better at hiding it, that's all.

I'm dancing in the puddles & I'm bathing in the sun.

Join along, anyone?

2009-12-02T20:50:00.003+08:00

You know sometimes you just think Emily Rose is still alive...

Well I didn't know I can stumble upon her in the MRT on my way home.

I don't care if I'm being mean.

This person slept while standing in front of us & I just couldn't help it.

But blame Haliff for taking the picture.

*evil laugh*

Today is Wednesday. The next Wednesday will be my birthday!

*jumps for joy*

Make me smile ;D

2009-12-02T03:08:00.004+08:00

Unlike you, I have my bitches calling me to the beach

where the sun's smiling & the hot hunks walking with their cigg in their hand.

Oh damn I'm caught in a bad romance.

2009-11-29T00:06:00.003+08:00

I party like a rockstar

Look like a movie star

Play like an all star

Fvck like a porn star

Baby I'm a superstar

Niez Aint Legit. says:
izah u so hot. come lets make out

2009-11-23T23:08:00.003+08:00

I need to escape from reality for a moment.

I need a man to be there for me.

Making out in the car when the traffic light turns green.

Fingers caressing thighs.

Our eyes meet.

I think I found my man.

2009-11-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

When entering a shop, always know when to say what.

Unlike my dearest twin.

Retail worker: Hello, welcome!

Erah: Oh welcome *smiles*

Few seconds later, she went to me & started giggling. I found out why &

Erah: I don't know ah I knew I had to say something but I just couldn't find the words.. You know?

Me: Hahaha yeah I see

But really, copying what the retail worker said is not what you're supposed to do. She welcomes you, & you welcome her back.

Unbelievable.

So anyway prom's coming & like what twinnie said in her new tumblr, she's sick of walking around town. Yeah man. Urgh.

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY AINUL FASHA!

Jeez I miss you so much :)

2009-11-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

I hereby declare, I am done with secondary school. (Woooh awesomeh)

Paper starts at 2pm, & at 1.15pm, I was still making my way to Raa's place. Hahaha. And when I reached school, that thinner smell, my God just felt like puking before entering the exam hall. Anyway paper was fine ;D

And happy birthday, Eric!

So after the celebration, we headed off to Marina Square. We initially wanted to go Tampines, but what the hell, we were running out of time for the interview so might as well don't turn up. We made our rounds & finally settled down at Starbucks. Erah got her 200$.

And I got my 200$ too ;D

I had fun laughing cause apparently both Tara & Erah had their blond moment today. I went home & sister surprised me by buying Hei Sushi! Aww so sweeeet :)

I'm a happy kid today.

AND TOMORROW SHOPPING. AND NEW HAIR COLOUR.

I'll be a happier kid tomorrow.

Picture of the day: (Isn't Tara becoming more feminine nowwww? Awww)

2009-11-10T23:09:00.003+08:00

I've been going out almost everyday. This is fun.

Apparently I am tired today, so I chose to stay at home. Was thinking to go out for lunch with Ra but she was sleeping (tidur mati, like wow first time) so I asked my sister to accompany me to get an ice-cream, at least.

Adan, on the other hand, finds his work today very boring. Haha. He was posted to another outlet which is near Mustapha & I think that sucks. Hahaha. Okay I can't stop laughing.

So he went online & webcam-ed with me.

I thought as though I was the one working at Coffee Bean -.-

AND YEAH MAN! Few more hours to my last paper! Yeeeha.

2009-11-05T22:40:00.004+08:00

It was surprising that Accounts turned out to be pretty easy. Like all these while, I've been a F student in Accounts. It's just not my stuff, you know? Well maybe I should have chosen D&T for my 6th subject, but come to think of it, nah I am never good in handling D&T things.

I stayed up & burned the midnight oil yesterday night. But credits to Adam who accompanied me. Believe it we were studying while talking. Though it was worth it after all.

So yeah, there's hope for Accounts :)
Another paper to go & that's it man. That's it.

Anyway, I was chatting with Haliff when there's this online aquaintance of mine approached me & said,
Toothpick says:
i dont know why
Myza Hazelwood says:
What do you not know?
Toothpick says:
why i think too much abt you
Myza Hazelwood says:
Eew get a life
Toothpick says:
i know right

Graduation night is coming. And that's farewell.

2009-11-03T12:08:00.005+08:00

Unlike you people, I had free tickets to the sneak preview of MJ's This Is It on 28th October. It was so awesome!

Like BOOMZ like that!

So there's just Physics paper tomorrow & Accounts paper on the following day. Science MCQ next Wednesday AND I AM DONE WITH THIS HIGH SCHOOL SHIT.

I can't wait to go shopping. I really can't wait.

And just sometimes, I like it to stay this way.

It's time to run

2009-10-19T19:21:00.002+08:00

Oh where oh where could my baby be?

Wo wait, I think globalisation is such an easy topic! Heh. Good job good job.

I'll get ready soon. I'll be going to the airport. Haliff & Tara will be there. And I hate it Erah can't tag along. Ass.
But it'll be fun. It'll be a fun time.

Let's expand balls.

2009-10-15T18:03:00.002+08:00

Haliff is so into Ms Horny.

So is Reihan & the boys. They had fun reading the Teenage magazine where readers send e-mails to the mag. And there was Ms Horny. Well basically she's a very dirty girl. She takes 4 hours to masturbate. She masturbates 7 times a day. She uses anything she finds in the house to 'help' her. She reads about sex books, she chats online to talk about sex, exchange tips on masturbating & all. She's open to any guy as she says sex is enjoyable.

But she was complaining that her vagina hurts.

So she was seeking help from Teenage mag. She wants to live a healthier life.

Heh, yeah right. Man she's a sicko!

Haliff & me are at Tara's crib right now. And we just had McSpicy. I am seriously going to get fat. God dammit.

Quote of the day:

"Balls equals fun" - Tara.

In Math class,

Carolyn: Cher how do you expand?

Mdm Wong: I eat ah.

At the porch after class ends,

Haliff: Cher, I thought you're having a meeting?

Mdm Wong: Yah, meeting with the food first.

Me: Wah nice meeting ah Cher.

Tara: Oh so this is how you expand ah Cher?

Me: Later she simplify.

2009-10-13T22:25:00.003+08:00

I thought the boys woke up earlier than me. But no.

All three of us already set our alarm clocks at 4.30am, having the thought of calling Macs for breakfast. Amir woke up, turned off the snooze & slept back. So did Reihan. I didn't even hear my alarm ringing.

Mum made them breakfast & Amir went off to school first cause his lesson was at 1130 while Rei & me, an hour later. I am quite tenacious about my Organic Chem now. And that is super fantastic.

Tested Haliff his Organic Chem after Chem's lesson, but he was vacuous.

Just recently I noticed I've been having Macs almost everytime I eat. I'm so addicted, I took Haliff's McSpicy coupon.
Hee hee :)

As usual, I did some blog hopping just before creating this post. It came to my attention, that surprisingly almost every blog's all about love. Well, almost. It made me look back at what I've been doing this year. 2009. I fall in love, I fall out of love, I fall back in love & back out of love. Somehow it's getting permanently attached to my cycle of life. When I'm in love, I thought I was ready for a breakdown. But when it comes, I got all messed up. End up being misery's best friend. When I got over everything, it's either I thought I got over everything or another exact replica of the previous guy appear.

Grotesque enough. These barricades guarding have dwindled I guess.

Okay anyway this dingy room is getting on my nerves. I can't concentrate!
And O's coming.

O O O O O O O O O.

Let us all have a zestful approach! :D

But put that aside, I'm meeting Zul tomorrow! Yeay he's treating meeeeee. Huha!

2009-10-12T19:40:00.002+08:00

Oh you should know how bad I am in Accounts.

I had Accounts tuition yesterday night. I was pretty much blur the whole session because I've used up almost all of my brain energy for Math.

Me: *while pointing in the air* If that one's undervalued then net profit understated ah.
Her: Uhh okay here's the normal way of thinking.
Her: *draws*

Silence.

Me: Uhh if that's the normal way then what way was I thinking?
Her: Yeah that's why I also don't know.
Me: Oh okay.

After Accounts tuition my brain finally got it's rest. Finally.

I didn't attend school today because I woke up at 7.30am. Class starts at 8am. I knew I could make it cause yeah, no harm in coming late. But neh, I was too tired.

Reihan & Amir will be sleeping over at my place for tonight. I just hope tonight's study group can at least make a difference.

Well maybe I can have another Accounts 'not-normal-way-of-thinking' tuition with Rei.

2009-10-02T00:47:00.002+08:00

Mamat yang di belakang kita bertiga,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ;D

Dah besar Abang Jeng kita. Hehe.

All the best, Fir!

2009-10-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

The greatest irony of love.

Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right & finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you’re already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love.

Love is always present.

It’s just that one was being love too much & the other was loved too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body, but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always on the right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them, we are just passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.

So here’s a piece of advice: Let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t
enough, & move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.

Tell me something new.

2009-10-01T18:49:00.003+08:00

Oh no!

I am so sorry I've not been updating. Apparently I was too caught up with stuffs I can't find myself free to switch on the computer. Well I think I have to catch things up with the peeps in school. I've been absent for 2 days! :(
I am having the worst ever migraine. Till my neck can neither turn left nor right!
It sucks big time, because I've been sleeping & not studying at home. I went to my aunt's clinic 2 days ago & she said I'm stress.

Woh, stress?

I don't know if you're able to believe that, but I don't. Though Haliff said I do look stress.
Uhuh. Yes I have been distracted by a few things lately, but I just find saying "I'm stress" quite funny. It's not normal. At all.

AND I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. At least I know I have a Children's Day gift from Mr Leow, heeheehee.

I was searching for my notes yesterday when I stumbled upon LaSalle's Undergraduate Guide book. I generally flipped through it & I start to wonder about life. It was more like I flipped through the Secondary Guide book yesterday. Time flies so fast. How parents choose for you your outfit, how parents save your money, how parents choose which school is the best for you.

Everything's changed.
Now I have to choose my own outfit, I have to save my own money, I have to choose my future, I have to have a career, I have to meet people.

I have to see the world.

Sometimes I just wish I'm a senior & can never graduate. Not that I want to repeat years of education, but just sometimes you need things to be the way it is now. You don't want it to change. You just want to enjoy every bit of it.

Wait. My cat's snoring. I guess she must have fall asleep while listening to me. Never mind that.

Anyway, I know this sounds crazy but I think I'm going to live just this 1 month without having a handphone. It's a 50/50 thing. Mdm Wong wanted to take it & I was on the verge of giving her my handphone, but nah I wasn't that crazy. Hahahahaha. Maybe next week.

Sure, now is the time to tell everyone not to despair.

He: Go on! Don’t be shy, ask me out.
She: Okay, get out.

2009-09-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAHRIL & AMIR!

Iftar!

2009-09-16T23:52:00.001+08:00

I am so lazy to drag myself to the computer. So I'll surf the net through mobile. While on bed. While hugging my pillow. While lying down. While having my cat sleeping next to me. Ahh.

And finally, prelims are over! Jump around seniors!

Haha. Second part of the journey to success gone. O's the final lap man.

After my Accounts paper today, Elyra & Haliff went over to my place. Sadly, there weren't anything to do. So Elyra & I were basically browsing through friends on FB while Haliff slept.

This was what happened.

Me: Eh Rah, kau tengok Haliff tidur.
Elyra: Cute seh dia tidur.
Me: Hah.

2 minutes later.

*plop plop plop*

Me: Oh my God? *turns behind to look at Haliff*
Elyra: What the, dia kentot bila tidur!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Oh my, what a moment! Cute ass. It's rare okay finding a fart sound like plop plop plop (3 in a row!), bcos usually it's poot or puffff.

Heh.
That was that.

Rushed back to school for iftar. Holy, it's pretty cool! Like, when did a school gather everyone for iftar? Heh but yeah it was only for the 4E & 5N muslim students.

Thanks Mr Kamal & the rest of the teachers who made it a successful one! And yeah the doa almost made me cry. Damn it.

Met Dan & went home together (:

Okay I need to sleep now. I've been yawning. Gah.

Face up

2009-09-15T22:41:00.005+08:00

No Sepet, your post is not somewhat similar to the publisher's, it is already from the publisher himself/herself. You only did the introduction & the ending of it.

"Im supporting the mens' side. You should know we ,men, have our dignity and pride. You shouldnt have go to the extent to degrade my dignity. Dont you? Thats the part where you are over the line , miss. But whatever it is, i know whats the consequences of putting up the post. A men's judgement. A men's opinion. Done.Easier said, girls are an open book, its either you want to read it or not. (Thank you eera)" - Sepet's blog.

Yes it's human nature that one will side their own gender. That, I shan't argue.

Dignity & pride. Now you're involving personal matters? I see.
Dignity & pride is found in all human, it's whether one accepts it or not, or whether one has confidence in it. Are you saying that all men have dignity & pride whereas girls don't?

You know it all goes down to whether do you have pride in yourself if you're the man who take trashes from bins, walking to that smelly truck & dumping all those waste.

If you assume what I've just said degrades your dignity, in the first place you yourself have proven a possibility that you have no confidence in your statement. Is that your definition of dignity?

There's no lines in this argument, just levels of maturity. The question is, which level are you on?

Knowing the consequences of publishing that post, you should have been fully prepared for a counter.

What you're saying, is just a groundless statement.

Girls are an open book, it is either you want to read it or not.
Did anger & shame led you to conclude that this statement is right?

After all, we're all God's creation & we are all made equal.

You see, now this is done with dignity & pride.

2009-09-14T17:02:00.003+08:00

"Men don't understand women

I don't really understand girls nor women. From my opinion,

Girls are highly complicated. Men see that she comprises clothes, smiles, lovely hairstyles, and several other things that cannot be mentioned here due to lack of space and also because of a need to be prudent. It is quite obvious that the above-mentioned do not comprise a girl. It is also obvious that a girl cannot be a girl without all these things.

Men have never been able to comprehend where the things that a girl uses end and where the actual girl begins. A lot of girls would love to be men, except on certain occasions. At least, this is what they say, and this must part of their complicated nature. No man can fathom why on earth a girl would want to be a man. Men turn pale before them, go cold and hot before them, chase after them and also run away from them, swear at them and also by them. A small-sized girl in lisle-thread stockings and a short skirt is able to twist strong men round her tiny finger.

In a way, men are lucky because girls are more fond of them than they are of other girls. There are different types of girls, and a single girl is not the same at all times. A girl by herself is not the same as she is in the company of her girlfriends.Men wish they knew everything there is to know about girls. However, it is good that they don't. This is in no way meant to disparage girls. The girl is an eternal puzzle to man, and it is the fact that she is a puzzle that draws man to her and arouses his curiosity about her.In short, what a man doesn't know about girls would fit into a truck, and what he knows about girls would fit into a girl's little work box.

If you really understand girls then i must congratulate you because its hard. I know." - Sepet's blog.

Well I have to say you have a point in saying facts like that but I have to bring up to your attention that your source isn't favourable to what's happening in today's context.

Yes I do believe females are highly complicated. We get so stressed up choosing a perfect outfit to wear, we nag almost every time when some thing's out of place somewhere. But in this case, a man's complexity isn't much of a difference either. Look around you, sometimes you don't understand why men fight with each other just because of a girl, or maybe settling a cold war between each other. You don't understand how soccer or any other sports means to them, which applies to women going shopping in a rather small mall & you believe it's a never-ending thing. I believe this is general enough to describe our differences but you need to look on the minor side. Some women abhor shopping because they think it's a waste of money. Some men prefer to sleep rather than waking up at 3 in the morning just to catch their favourite football team live on ESPN.

Vanity is the ultimate thing that's happening today. As much as we care about our own looks, men are finally getting it too. Your statement's just too strong to make readers the assumption that men are, say, imprudent. Don't just get too carried away by general terms of a girl. You can see men carrying a comb around, you'll find a perfume in his bag, or perfect, we have Ashley Isham recognized by those in the upper echelons of fashion for his fashion sense. In a globalised world, a man, in fact, isn't a man, without all these things too.

Except on certain occasions, most females would love to be a man. No you didn't flip the coin mister, what happened to men who wants it vice versa? What happened to the sacrifices a man has to face & that just sometimes, they wish they're a female? Surgeries to change one's sex are still going on in today's life, you have to pick up these small things to have a full scale of the picture. Considering the violence or verbal insults of men & women, you can't just look at females as if they're the ones who starts misery. Even if a small-sized girl is able to twist strong men round her tiny finger, what would you have to say when a man says such sweet & simple words, & the next thing you know you have a woman catering her life to that man?

There are different types of women. There are different types of people.

So there are different types of men. Most say when men are together, they are boys. A change in behaviour. A change in talking. Well, at least you now know the similarity.

The woman is an eternal puzzle to the man. A puzzle that draws man to her & arouses his curiosity about her. What a man doesn't know about a woman would fit into a truck & what he knows would fit into a girl's little work box.

I pretty much hope you don't get confused with this when love & anger is present. You just can't find the right words when you're in love, worse still, you don't know what attracts you to the opposite sex but because of love, you're with him/her. Anger also affects one's whole emotion. Be it you know you're in love or you're angry, you probably will think or do things unconsciously. That's what's happening to most of us. It's psychological, & you do know it's inevitable. So perhaps it's not really complicated when you know emotions are taking a part of it because well, it's just another part of the story. Say, if a couple don't really know each other well, they apparently will have difficulties in facing problems. But why is there such couples living in perfect bliss? Maybe imperfections are what that makes it perfect together. After all when you think about it, you don't really need to know. You need to understand.

In a nutshell your opinion is a biased one, where you're not taking in what's happening around you. After all these, don't you think it all comes down to one's individuality? You can't blindly take it that women have to wear dresses to work or men have to search for a job. Gender might be a factor that affects one's thinking, but your opinion isn't reliable.

And maybe you should try & learn to also write down where you get your source from, Mister. It's the publisher's rights.

It's such faux pas.

2009-09-13T00:42:00.008+08:00

Friday's outing was a blast!

But anyhoo it wasn't that great cause we don't have Sally with us! She's the other birthday girl who's supposed to blow her candles! Pfft Salllyyyyy.

So mission accomplished, Elyra had fun that night. Ah I love her :)

Thanks to you people who came!

Oh yeah Sufyan complained he didn't puasa today cause of me. I know you're going to read this. Hahaha.

Okay let's hope you don't too, tomorrow :D

2009-09-12T22:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELYRA & SAIFUL!

Why do you have to be so you?

2009-09-11T01:15:00.002+08:00

Here’s a piece of advice, Sepet.

Let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, & move on when things aren’t like before.

Surely there is someone out there who will love you more.
Dude I told you to search someone better than me, not worse.

Well, so far the books are being a bitch. They're giving me attitude.
I need to ring Elyra soon. Apparently sleepover will have to be some time later.

I accompanied the guys 'shopping' yesterday. And I swear to God I can't help it but laugh at them. I'll post pictures of today's outing soon ;D

2009-09-09T21:21:00.002+08:00

Vanity, thy Name is no longer woman. Men are getting more excuses to be vain thanks to the industries' efforts of Hollywood & the cosmetics industry. Whether it is going to a tanning salon for that perfect Greek God shade of bronze or getting their hair clipped by Shunji Matsuo, men are finally getting their groove on.

Just recently, I've been bragging about my dream to almost everyone. It was beautifully planned, I was at the subway with this guy I don't know who but in my dream he was regarded as my boyfriend & hell yeah he was frigging good-looking!

He was tall & he has this dark hair & a square jaw. The impressive thing was his biceps that bulged out in like 41 different directions! Girls gnashing their teeth, people finding something to deaden their jealousy. Oh I so love it!

Talking to both Elyra & Vinith really made my day. They're both awesome & the conversation was filled with embarrassment & confessions. I'm like in the center of them two. Just couldn't help but laugh.

Little life lesson #56: A good way to ensure you will never have a boyfriend is to have a large armed man with an uncertain grasp of English heckle you in public.

Dude tell me, what do you see when you're looking at me?

2009-09-02T17:21:00.002+08:00

" hair stuck!
have you ever imagine how a tampon wrapper to ever get stuck on your hair ??!! well i , Elyza and Elyra saw it with ourown eyes ! it was seriously funny . At first we did not want to help that girl to pull that thing of her hair . but due to the fasting month , we are suppose to be very nice people and help others in need . so... we decided to help her . when we told her that she had a piece of the tampon wrapper on her hair , her reply was ," Oh .. tadi kakak kat toilet . tak prasan . " without thanking us for helping her she just walk away giving the "steping" face . Elyza said that we should not have help her . i think she was super paiseh ! *hahaha* *hahaha*ps: well to all the girl remember to check whether anything got stuck to you right sfter u wash-up your * you know what * . even your hair ! "

- Taken from Hafiz's blog.

To whoever that girl is, I think you screwed up in pretending. You gotta work on it. Like what Hafiz suggests, we should have snap a photo of you. Lucky I was in a good mood to save your ass.

I've been super lazy this week.

Though I am very excited get my hair done next Monday. Like finally, after begging my parents for money & action merajuk after that. Yeah it works everytime. Well it's either I'm good in this or they're trying to spoil their child.

All I know my twin isn't getting the hang of it.

2009-08-29T00:07:00.002+08:00

"I seriously do not know why this is friggin random. But will you be my maid of honour when I get married?"

-Elyra! 27-Aug-2009 10.38pm

Yearbook!

2009-08-25T23:15:00.004+08:00

Hannah

Shasha

Elyra

Elyza

Thanks to Aidil & some others in FB, I got stucked in the middle of the night uploading & laughing at pictures.

I AM HAVING ENGLISH ORAL TODAY!

But lucky there's no school in the morning. So I just have to attend oral which will be around 2pm.

My twin is so going to love this Yearbook thing. Heh heh.

2009-08-20T21:08:00.003+08:00

If it wasn't because of Cikgu Asnah, I wouldn't get an A1 for Malay.

Okay that was, uhh, nvmd.

Now imagine this.

I got an A1 for Malay.

Without knowing what's left & what's right in Malay.

Call yourself an A1 student, Izah.
Congratulations, heh! *pats at the back*

Congrats to those who succeed. Work harder for those who are still not satisfied.

And to my dearest Hannah darling, I miss you.

And to my dancers, GOSH I MISS YOU PEOPLE TOO.

And please eh Zul, I wasn't even hinting you to ask me out to prom.
Mamat perasan!

Oh & congratulations to Irsyad for passing his driving test ;D

To Haliff, I really hope you recover fast. I miss punching & teasing you. You know it well, sometimes I can be a bully. I hope your brother recovers fast too, he's too cute to be stuck at home feeling sick. Haha.

Jeez my eye candy's just so cute.

Even Irsyad's jealous.

To Lavanya, text me soon about your condition. Yes it got me worried knowing you vomitted! Damn you.

What's up with people getting sick nowadays? Sick people.

And what's up with me dedicating from the start of this post.

Lovelies

2009-08-18T23:07:00.006+08:00

These were taken on a Saturday night.

And since I was on a dilemma whether to head home late & wake up late on a Sunday or head home early & wake up early to study on a Sunday.

I chose the latter.

But coming home at midnight still didn't help because I woke up very late the next day.

Dad finally made a decision to give away my two kittens Chichi & Kiki to his friend who's staying at Potong Pasir. I cried during the whole process, I just can't bear being apart from them.

All I know is when I want to see them means I want to see them that instant!

Dad promised me that though.

For some reason I notice I am trying my best to avoid holding on to a book, or even papers. I'll soon be out of here, out of this instituition. Just a matter of days.

Then I'm no longer a current student of Anderson.

Hot shots

2009-08-12T22:30:00.005+08:00

I need some air here, hello?

This is the most crucial time of my life, so far. Certainly not because of O's, alright.

I need to visit the ice-cream shop. I need to buy new clothes. I need to try on new shoes. I need to show my new watch. I need to burn papers. I need to finish a bottle of Pepsi. I need to suck lollipops. I need to run in an open field. I need cameras around me. I need someone to read me a bedtime story before I go to sleep. I need someone to sing me a lullaby. I need someone to run up to me when I cry. I need someone to hug me tight when I'm afraid of the dark.

I need to chase my cats & be chased by them.

My oh my, what happened to me all these years? Did I throw all my worries because I used to have a companion by my side? Ah, I see the problem.

I think I really need to mention a few great friends here. I really should.

Haliff, my best dude. It's funny how we started off getting to know each other. And as we grow older, we got closer. He's been there for me & he knows both my good & bad character. He's there when I was angry, he's there when I was crying & he's there when I was laughing. He dedicates his life to people he love & care. He nurtures the weak. Being humble is his job. He understands people, even if you're spilling shits out of your mouth or you keep on cursing people, he'll adapt to new environments & face different challenges. He gives his best & he accept his weakness.

He's a good chap in my eyes.

It's hard though if you see it if you're not in my shoes. It hurts me to hear people having bad thoughts about someone really close to you. Doesn't it hurt you? Real bad for me.

I love him like my own brother. I know words can't describe anything I'm feeling right now. But seeing him suffer with me when I'm the one facing a problem, the friendship is just, so beautiful.

Thanks for being there, Hal. Thanks for being there, everytime.

Though I'll also dedicate that to my twin Elyra & my fantastic bitches+guy, Tara, Lavanya, Sha, Zuhri.

I don't know why I'm being very emotional. Ass.

And there's someone I think who also contributed to ease my pain. Someone who should not be named.
(I feel like I'm writing about Voldemort don't you know that?)

Although we may be apart & we rarely update each other, I can still assure you, you're close to me in my heart. Can't deny it, you know me well. All the arguements we had, all the happy moments we shared. I'm happy for the way you are now, I'm very proud of you. Remember that.

You're living your life & that's great.

And I'm slowly catching up.

Thanks for everything, English man. You can keep on irritate people with your slang, haha!

I hope Tara's having fun watching Lady Gaga! Jeez.

2009-08-10T16:58:00.003+08:00

I have a very cute nephew & I am proud of it. Aww, can't get my eyes off him!

I slept late yesterday & I feel just super lethargic today. To make things worse, I just got to know there'll be a History test tomorrow. Within a short notice, no, things won't get into my brain.

Though somehow I quite hate it when boys start to invade a girl's life. Well not just any boy, but don't you think your life's going to be a hell of a ride if the boy you're contacting is just some immature kid?

Yes sadly, an individual's actual maturity may not correspond to their chronological age, as immature individuals exist at all ages.

Anyway I am online right now & there's this Thailand student I believe from Winitsuksa School sent a 'Hi' to me. I am really not good at remembering each of their names cause they have very weird names & just sometimes they can even look the same.

member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
Hi!
Elyza Lovelock says:
& who are you?
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
i'm Thai student
Winitsuksa
do you knowฦ
?
Elyza Lovelock says:
oh your name?
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
Bank
and you
Elyza Lovelock says:
Izah
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
?
are you Eilleen's friend
?
do you know Eileen?
Elyza Lovelock says:
which Eileen?
i am not sure
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
yap
do you knw Rui Ting
?
Elyza Lovelock says:
Ru Ting, yes
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
your friend
?
what are you doing ?
Izah
are you there?
i want to talk with you
are you bussy
?
busy
Elyza Lovelock says:
not really
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
are you ok
?
Elyza Lovelock says:
yes i am ok
you?
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
i'm ok
Elyza Lovelock says:
awesome
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
what's wrong
?
are you doing homework?
Elyza Lovelock says:
yes
member_chem_ws@hotmail.com says:
do i disturb you?
do i make you annoy?
ok
i won't disturb you
sorry for annoying you
bye bye...
see you later

I giggled when I read back the conversation again.

Reason #1: I thought the user was some person I got to know from Friendster or something. So I started off sounding very unfriendly.

Reason #2: His name is Bank.

Reason #3: Him asking "Are you okay?" - It tickles me. Of course I am okay. I mean, the point is there but it's just funny. Heh.

Okay I am really bad.

Ahhhhxzx tomorrow's Malay results! Bullshitszzxsx!

2009-08-09T23:17:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday, Singapuraaa!

Went out to Haliff's chalet. Elyra had to wait for me like, more than half an hour. Oh my, so sorry for that bitch. Like what you said, lucky you were in a good mood. So basically after meeting her we went on a mission to get something for that birthday kid.

Adan, on the other hand, came early to fetch me. So I asked him to come over to the chalet. Since he was uncomfortable going to the chalet empty handed, he asked me to accompany him buy a pack of cigg for Haliff, as a birthday present. And there you go, birthday boy felt so blessed ever since.

Surprisingly I bumped into my cousin Syafiq when I was with Adan. And Syafiq was giving me that sinister smile. Damn I hate that.

Just minutes before the fireworks, Tara texted me & asked me to join her at Marina or wherever she was at that point of time. I was lazily pampering myself when she texted me that so I said, "You can't expect me to fly from Hougang all the way to wherever you are right now in just a matter of minutes Tara!"

And she replied, "It's okay Izah, I have my mom's card tonight. Just flag that frigging cab!".

Damn she's awesome! But I had a bloody headache & I decided not to tag along. She was high anyway, she had sugar the whole day.

Lucky there's no school tomorrow!

2009-08-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

2009-08-07T21:16:00.003+08:00

I spent my day with Elyra. Super awesome lah.
Like really really awesome.

I watched the boys playing Guitar Hero in school. And laughed at Elyra when she sang like, off beat, thinking that THAT wasn't her voice. Basically the whole lot was laughing at her. Hilarious.

Oh & Haliff proposed to her! Not really proposed, he was just asking whether she could be his prom date. Thanks to me, the kneeling down & proposing was a complete success. The chocolates were in good shape. The rose was perfect.

Aww they look cute together!

Okay.
After that Elyra & me went around Tampines & bought ourselves the same pair of slippers. Hah.

Went to sit at Coffee Club after sight seeing. And somehow she felt she's 21.
Gosh I miss her already.

Ahhhhh. The song :(

The first time I won’t regret
One look into your eyes and I’ll never forget
You’re not about to jump right into this tonight
I’m wondering just what to do
Every single second in the room with you
I can’t talk this over to win you over here tonight

So open your eyes don’t say goodnight
I’m wondering why alone tonight
I’ll just let it go for you

I’m letting you down
You were just hiding it so well
You’re giving me no sign no interest
You don’t really want this
You don’t really want this

Right now
Are you gonna try to save yourself
I bet you’re so sick of hearing it
Well you don’t really want this
You don’t really want this now

So hard to get is that what it’s gonna be
Sitting down not even looking at me
I hope forever I don’t remember this tonight
So out the door gone away
Run so fast through the pouring rain
We’re gone forever so much better here tonight

So open your eyes don’t say goodnight
I’m wondering why alone tonight
I’ll just let it go for you

I’m letting you down
You were just hiding it so well
You’re giving me no sign no interest
You don’t really want this
You don’t really want this

Right now
Are you gonna try to save yourself
I bet you’re so sick if hearing it
Well you don’t really want this
You don’t really want this

I’d throw it all away for you
If you took another look
You’d be back so soon
All alone dark cold night
Wrapped around you better hold on tight

Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah

Down
You were just hiding it so well
You’re giving me no sign no interest
Well you don’t really want this

So right now
Are you gonna try to save yourself
I bet you’re so sick of hearing it
Well you don’t really want this

I’m letting you down
You were just hiding it so well
You’re giving me no sign no interest
Well you don’t really want this
You don’t really want this

Right now
Are you gonna try to save yourself
I bet you’re so sick of hearing it
Well you don’t really want this

Almost

2009-08-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

I can't get my ass off my bed. I'm super lethargic & I had to blog using mobile. I spent my whole Saturday outside. Got to meet Aidi in the afternoon. It was a little intense at start, when I had to wait a super long time for him at the MRT. The thought of catching a movie was of course, cancelled. So after a meal we headed to my place & spent the whole night staring & admiring the skies. At least it made me calm after all that had happened.

And I think Aidi's super cute. Really! B)

2009-07-31T23:19:00.004+08:00

I really hope my dearest cousin Amir will recover fast. Based on Mum's story, I really REALLY hope he's doing fine. A fever reaching up to 40 degrees Celsius isn't a joke! Even if I'm having a temperature of 39 degrees Celsius I thought I'm about to die! Nyekk.

I noticed now is the period of time where all graduating students are feeling it. Feeling it real bad.
Tests, nags, meet-the-principal session, assignments.
Oh yeah we're feeling it.

And it feels good.

Oh my God I miss chocolates!

Elyza took What type of person should you date? quiz and the result is A Gemini and you.

You: Optimistic, free, honest, humorous, straight-forward, positive, tolerant, energetic, eager, restless and enjoys traveling.
The Gemini: Witty, curious, entertaining, easily distracted, mischievous, lively, talkative, adaptable, light-hearted and flirtatious.
Why you like the Gemini: You like constant change, so the Gemini's adaptable and curious nature will fit in perfect with your lifestyle of variety. You admire the Gemini for being an adventure all in himself/herself and his/her sunny personality.
Why the Gemini likes you: The Gemini enjoys your free spirited nature and shares your love of travel and adventure. The Gemini doesn't like serious and boring conversations and you are full of life and very hopeful for the future. You are also patient enough to tolerate the Gemini's distracted ways.

Star

2009-07-28T22:53:00.006+08:00

I keep on reading it. I keep on thinking. I keep on remembering. I keep on wondering.

He plays the sweetest melody. When I hear it, it takes over me. And I feel every strum of the strings reminds me of all the things we used to be. Can't breathe at all cause you're coming, coming through my speaker. Everytime I'm by him, you're ripping up on the chords, playing with my heart. It kills me that I can't be with you. Thought I was the key you're playing. I'm losing my composure. I can't gain you over. Control me with your melody.

He's my electric guitar.

Seems like you're forever in a getaway. Feels like we've been apart for some light years. Crater in my heart, filled with tears. What I'm trying to say, I want you back in my world again. And I bet you remembered that summer, when we kicked it everyday. Don't know how it happened, but it just happened. Kinda like we faded away.

I lost your signal. Where are you at?

I can't get you out of my system.

I'm here wishing you would stop by my place.

I miss that expression when you saw me with another guy. I miss you being so shocked I'm going out with him. I miss your care. I miss our no-you-hang-up conversations.

So starlight, where did you go?

I can't get you out of my system.

Girl: He's the sweetest among different types of sugar. The purest taste from Heaven. Irresistably charming, with eyes that sparkle when stared deep into. A killer smile that would make my heart skips a beat.

Boy: Who's the he you're referring to?

Girl: He isn't just any guy. He's the one who made me fall for him just at firsht sight. He got me to love him & taught me falling out of love again. But none could explain how I could get back together & fall for him once again.
Boy: Oh wow. Is he really that wonderful?
Girl: To many, I believe he is. I'm just like any other, falling hard. But I wish to hear, I'm different in some way. At least.
Boy: But I think to many, He's useless. And he thinks you're actually way different.
Girl: How may I be different?
Boy: He never force a girl to fall for him. Once tried forgetting him. And again, hoping that she'll fall for him. It's really amazing to see how love can make you stay.
Girl: And how ironic love can be, hoping for a pocket full of sunshine when there's never a shining light that will ever convince me.
Boy: How to? If he himself is not sure of your feelings.
Girl: Blame love. It makes me stay, ironic & it succeeded in getting things to a standstill.

I keep on reading it. I keep on thinking. I keep on remembering. I keep on wondering.

Alienated

2009-07-25T23:25:00.004+08:00

Hello beautiful world, I am suddenly good in Accounts!

How awesome can it be?
Super awesome!

I woke up late today & so I ended up at Pasir Ris late too. Initially Saturday's plan was to go to grandma's house & in the afternoon, meeting up with Ibu & Zul to catch a movie. Due to the timings, the plan is cancelled.

Called Zul up & he's on his way to PA with Hannah.

I wouldn't want to drag myself to PA today. So I chose to let them go & I head home. When I board the bus 88, Ibu called me & frantically forced me to alight. Thanks to my parents, they saved my day. They wanted to go to Expo & suggested that I alight somewhere that's easy for them to pick me up.

I alighted at Sufyan's place. And wait. (Trust me, it kills waiting for them)

Went to Expo for the food thingy. I have no idea what it was before I even go there but it makes no difference till now, I apparently shut myself down & just tail my mum.

But it was awesome. Somehow.

Got home & watched The Eye 10. Hahahahaha. That's pretty random, but it was worth the time.

2009-07-22T13:59:00.004+08:00

He's very competitive.

But he can't beat me in Bejewelled. Hahaha loser ah Sufyan!

He came across the idea of taking this picture because initially before the white in the middle of the reds was there, you're able to see a heart shape. Awesome. I noticed the second he said it.

I didn't attend school today cause I was late. Haha. And I'm actually going to school in a while to sit for my listening compre. If it wasn't because of O levels, I think I'd be enjoying at home. What's more, it rained in the morning. So I slept. Heaven :D

After my paper, will be going out for dinner with the peeps.

I have to go out after that. Don't tell me I go all the way to school just to sit for a paper which is less than an hour & then head home. Heh.

I took a quiz on Facebook.

Elyza just took the "What should your relationship status be?" quiz and the result is Go Single.
It's ok hun. It's clear he/she really doesn't love you.

Uhuh. Sepet should get the message now.

Surprise me more.

2009-07-22T00:06:00.004+08:00

Dinner at Sakura was great. Photos will be up in Facebook.

This performance ended late.

Mum agreed to let me have the night after watching my performance. We then headed off to Mac at Amk Park. Zul did nonsensical acts & it freaked me out, so I had to ask Arep to fetch me home instead. What a baby.

Don't smoke it, I'm fresh right here.

2009-07-17T22:28:00.006+08:00

He's the one for me, super fly & so sexy. Now I'm not sure if I'm applying myself so good on you, but I must say that I'll be checking you out when you roll through my hood. It's his touch, his smile, his swagger, his style I miss. I don't mind if he's out late at night, he's my best friend, I trust him. He's my boo, my man, riding till the end. He's my boy, my friend, got me wearing my best attitude on.

Looking in your eyes, when you're on the other side & I think boy, I have a thing for you. Doing it on purpose, I can tell by the way you're looking at me. She got the trap but I'll set you free.

But what the hell's going on here? I never meant to start a war. You know I never want to hurt you. I guess you better go & get your armor. Cause this love is like a battlefield.

I spent time playing most of the online games. Azrul was bored so I came up with the whole idea of playing Rock Paper Scissors with him, & such irony, I lost both rounds! I find the game very stupid too, pfft.

Thanks to twin, I'm craving for more Jon & Kate plus 8!

Tomorrow's my performance day. Yaw yaw wee! How awesome can things get, the event will be starting at 6 pm & the dancers are supposed to be there at 9 AM! Sickening.

But phew I was calmed down when I remembered about Monday's dinner at Sakura w the peeps. Don't be surprised if I gain weight. Uhuhm.

I miss my bestfriend Arep. It's been a while since I heard him laugh. I miss Fasha & Raa too :(

2009-07-14T22:00:00.002+08:00

Our inspirations for the day; Amir & Reihan.

I don't know what's up with my cousin & Reihan. Okay, basically the NA boys. And don't you think they look cute if ever they're girls? Aww, haha!

Yes!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IBU! ((:
She has yet to get her brownie cake & 2 handbags. Currently waiting for everyone to come home. Damn, I love her like greater than the entire universe! And yes she made me cry when I reached class. As in, tears of happiness. Just because of a text from her, & it made me feel like going home & hug her so tight!

Yesterday, I had my Malay O lvl oral. Haha. And my temperature was like, 37.7 degrees? Ashraf had the same temperature too. And Reihan was in between us. We weren't even serious while waiting. We giggled, we tried to whisper which eventually turned into a very loud whisper & Mr Koh had to come over & warn us. Haha. We didn't look seventeen. Okay, maybe the boys. But I had fun taking my temperature, challenging Ashraf & see who's 'hotter'. I was always 0.1 degrees behind him.

After that, I went for malay dance. FINALLY. Apparently, that, is the reason why I'm having cramps now.

THIS is the best part. As soon as we got ourselves out of school, Erah & me headed to Ashraf's Restaurant opposite. We had our drinks & we were chatting. Out of the blue...

there was this mat who didn't impress me at all, walking up the stairs. He, somehow, caught my attention, I have no freaking idea why but I quickly turned & continued my conversation with Erah. She, on the other hand, saw him too as he was walking towards 7-Eleven.

We were talking & talking. Until that guy came out of the shop. Erah saw him. He walked. He stopped.
JUST behind Erah. Obviously I could see him, right? I mean, I'm facing Erah.

BUT before anything, I shall make this very clear. HE WAS ALONE. And he was trying to take out a cigg.
I thought he wanted to ask me for a lighter -.-

Guy: Nak tanya sikit, you macam pernah nampak ah.
Me: Huh?
Guy: Tinggal mana ni?
Me: Hougang?
Guy: Tak salah macam pernah kenal ah.
Me: Heh?
Guy: Block berapa?
Me: Uh, asal?
Guy: Tak, pasal orang pun jalan jalan kat Hougang jugak.
Me: Oh. Tak ah, tak kenal.
Guy: Tak kenal eh?
Me: Ah.
Guy: Uh, ada handphone?

Erah was giggling, from the start. I then turned to look at our table. I stared at both my handphone & Erah's handphone.

Me: Ada.
Guy: Kalau ada handphone, mesti ada number kan?
Me: *muka irritated* Ah.
Guy: If you don't mind, boleh pass?
Me: I mind.
Guy: Huh, you mind?
Me: Yes, I mind.
Guy: Oh okay lah takpe.
Me: *muka slumber*

Then he walked off. MUKA TAK TAU MALU!

Erah & me was laughing our ass out the whole journey home. Heh. Poor ass.

This Saturday ada performaaaaaance! Yeay yeay.

Awesome!

2009-07-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

Open your iTunes and put it on shuffle. Every answer is a song title.
Topic: LOVE

How did you meet?
Hating On The Club - Rihanna.

His/her first impression of you?
Flying Solo - Chris Brown. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA omg I'm laughing my ass out!

Your first impression of them?
A Cause Des - Yelle.

How'd you two feel when you met?
Birthday Sex - Jeremiah. OH MY GOD!

Describe the first date.
Just Dance - Lady Gaga. Awesome!

Ending the night?
What's Ya Name - Nelly.

The best time you've had together?
Grown & Sexy - Keri Hilson ft Rod. Like, whoa!

Worst thing that's happened between you guys?
Stuck With Each Other - Shontelle ft Akon. True.

First time kissing:
Don't Forget - Demi Lovato. Awww (:

Meeting his/her parents:
If It Means A Lot To You - A Day To Remember. Heh. Whoa.

The impressions on the parents you made:
Dancing In The Moonlight - Toploader. Gee :p

Having a fight:
Saat Terakhir - ST12. Whoa.

Anniversary:
Finally Free - Comic Strip. Whoops? Hahaha.

A present he/she gave you:
G Is For Girl - Ciara.

Coming to them on a really bad day:
Clubbanger - Jay Rock. Awesome!

Falling in love:
Krazy - Pitbull ft Lil John. Super awesome!

Your song together is:
You Belong To Me - Taylor Swift. Uhuh. Okay.

Would you fall in love again?
Paper Planes - M.I.A.

Are you serious?
Shake - Pitbull.

Is he/she serious?
The Freshman - Verve Pipe.

Do you think everything's fair?
I Miss You - The Summer Obsession.

What's love?
Stay With Me - Danity Kane. Aww (:

Do you want your ex back?
Be With You - Akon. OKAY I'm really amazed at where this is going!

Do you love someone else?
Because Of You - Ne-yo. Ass.

Have you slept with him/her?
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy. Omg.

What do you like about him/her?
Boyfriend No. 2 - Pleasure P. I am very very very very. Shocked.

2009-07-09T22:59:00.004+08:00

My cat Chichi really taught me something valuable; Be amazed by everything, every single thing. I can assure you, apart from her being the first to greet me at the door everytime I reach home, she'll be the first to run to the toilet if I'm heading towards the kitchen. No matter what, either if I want to grab some food to munch or to wash my hands; she'll forever thinks that I'll go to the toilet. Then she'll run like there's no friction rubbing against her fur & just sometimes, you have to be careful enough to not accidentally push her with your feet because she'll be running in between your legs.

But what I'm trying to point out is that, she's really amazed by water. Like generally, water. Pardon me if this isn't what you were expecting, but she loves to be with me when I'm taking my bath. Then she'll have fun touching the water. Just touching, not more. The next second you know, she's staring inside the toilet bowl. Letting time pass just watching closely if someone tries to flush. At least that's exciting to watch (if you're talking about staring at the damn bloody stagnant water of course!). As we should all know, curiosity kills a cat. I might have to agree with that.

Since Mr Leow won't be having our class for Chemistry for the moment, there's another teacher replacing him, Mr Ng. Uhuh, he always has this lame joke he thought it'd be funny. Well, he thought. Anyway today, is the second day he's teaching us. And while I was trying so hard to keep sane & focus, he blurted a very very good quote, till Shasha & me stopped & stared at each other.

"If I were to teach you, I wouldn't teach you this." - Mr Matthew Ng.

That, apparently made my every bit of struggle to listen just came crashing down the drain.

I laughed, very hard. If only that applies to every stuff your teacher taught you.

Then life would be extra awesome!

So now that the DPA thang is currently the 'hot' topic among the graduating classes, I suddenly have to shut down my system.

Before I forget though, today's been a special day for Sepet as he turns a year older. 19 years of learning would be sufficient enough for you to be a good young adult. Unlike other unfortunate ones, you've been blessed with undying love from your family & you've been given chances in life. Advantages will always come in & you're bright enough to make your decisions. You face challenges with your fiery soul & 'losing' never come across your beautiful mind. Each day that passes, you're better than yesterday, know that. Search deep into your soul & be the sweetest guy you never imagine you'd be.

Happy birthday.

2009-07-06T12:13:00.001+08:00

I'm currenly using my mobile. And apology goes to Acit.

You didn't have to post up a sarcastic comment.

I'm tired of everything. I'm out to shop later. Thank God!

So right now there's complete silence. Miseries won't kill him anymore. Who needs a man anyway? I'm having bikes, cars & drinks along my way.

This is going to be extremely fantastic.

2009-07-05T22:23:00.003+08:00

She really takda kerja tau this girl.

-.-

For Heaven's sake!

*a little prayer for someone who's a hero today*

2009-07-05T11:27:00.003+08:00

Our inspiration of the day; Tara Nurul.

This will happen when Cikgu Asnah's not around. It's just natural to be doing this. In her class.

Just recently, I stumbled upon Acit & we had our talks & all. It occurred to me that for someone who forgets his/her ex-boyfriend/girlfriend is really a major issue. Well, it is to me. Have your say, forgetting Acit as my ex-boyfriend made me realise how things were to me back then. I would say I had a thing with Acit, but not really serious. Though somehow I did cry when we broke up. And surprisingly I can't even remember him being my ex-boyfriend.

He even thought I had a coma or something in the middle. Heh.

But he impressed me with his achievements & his strengths. He's a P.E. teacher currently as he's doing attachments, he's in Asia Pacific School of Sports & Business taking his Advance Diploma, he sings & plays the guitar & he could easily grab a grade 6 for his classical in my opinion. And nothing new, he's playing for Tampines Rovers.

So anyway, I've not been having enough sleep these few days. It brought to my attention, that the other day when I can't even lay still on the bed. I went to the kitchen & grab myself a Cornetto. Nothing exciting on tv, so I texted my bitch.

Me: Hey I can't sleeeeep.
Erah: Aku faham derita yang kau alami Izah. Aku turut bersedih. Let me be your psychiatrist. What cause you to have these insomnia?
Me: "Because I can't sleep till he's next to me, no i can't live without him no more. Oooh I stay up till he's next to me, till this house feels like it did before. Feels like insomnia, ahh ah. Feels like insomnia, ahh ah."
Erah: Kau minum redbull.
Me: No I didn't. Don't ask me to buy now, cause it's 2.31am!
Erah: I was joking lah giler. Kau tak berbual ngan siapa on the phone?
Me: No. Even if I am, it was 45 mins ago. You were asleep right?
Erah: Macam mana kau tau aku tidur?
Me: Practically because you didn't have any redbull(s).

Then there was silent.

Erah: Haha, sorry late reply. Was on the phone till I forgot about you. Lol sorry. Are you still up?

No, I was sleeping -.- Zzz.

I'm having an ulcer now. My left side of the tongue. Thanks to Erah, cause she had ulcers. One thing's for sure if she gets it, I have to just prepare for the worst myself.

Oh yes, just imagine having malay class with your teacher & she asked you what's the other word for sunat, then the whole class was busy thinking & she finally said, "Tak kan kau nak bilang potong konek kan?". Wooooooooah.

I came online very early today. Helmi finds it rare. Haliff sounded sarcastic & joined in stating it's really rare.

But! Fyzie was up early. And he had his hair botak! Due to NS, yes, he claimed his life's miserable. I have to admit he looks better when he's botak (I don't know why I have this thing with handsome botak guys). Hahahaha like finally, he's botak! :D And he's been receiving 'compliments' of him being darker. I told him I'd buy him a whitening cream. Yes, if we were to meet up, botak!

I cancelled Accounts tuition two times already. And so much of Acit's "I-have-trouble-in-Accounts". He proved he's better than me in some topics!

Urgh.

2009-07-01T22:01:00.004+08:00

I find it really hard for me to be elusive. Entangled in a seemingly never-ending debate of love. Though some might just break down & let emotions have the full power to control, I can still find my way through. Be it the pieces are fragmented & scattered all over, the affection is inevitable.

Like finally, I start to love Transformers or rather should I say I'm starting to feel comfortable just slouching in the movie theater's comfortable seat with a companion beside & of course, my iced lemon tea. I went to catch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past because Sepet has been wanting to watch it ever since he saw the appearance of it at Cathay. I must say, it's really a sweet/romantic/awesome movie. It's really touching. And to Sepet, the whole story is like a reflection of himself. To those who have catched the movie, you'll know. The guy's a total Casanova & until he knew everything, he discovered the one for him was just in front of him all the while. Catch it with someone you love, because you might not know if towards the ending, you just want to have a shoulder to cry on.

God damn it, I am very lethargic nowadays. Spending 4 years in secondary school is just the perfect period of time. Because now when it's nearing 5 years I'm in Anderson, I'm starting to feel time is passing by very & I mean, very, slow. Though O levels are just round the corner. All the best to whoever's taking their oral tomorrow!

It is the same old routine. Every Wednesday & Thursday, Faris will be at Yishun instead. And I miss him already. He's so very adorable, you just want to kiss & smell every part of him. But not when it's gros caca!

And Jeremiah's Birthday Sex song is playing on repeat, I have no idea why.

Talking about birthdays! Tomorrow, the 2nd of July will be a special day for dear Shasha! She turns a year older & that makes her seventeen. And it makes me still sixteen. OKAY, zzz.

Alright, I'm off. Will be doing my Accounts. My bloody Principle of Accounts.

So, is there any stars tonight, Sufyan?

2009-06-28T22:30:00.003+08:00

20 WAYS TO MAINTAIN YOUR INSANITY

1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.
2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.
3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with that.
4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In."
5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone Has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch To Espresso.
6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write "For Sexual Favors"
7. Finish All Your Sentences With "In Accordance With The Prophecy."
8. Dont Use Any Punctuation
9. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.
10. Ask People What Sex They Are. Laugh Hysterically After They Answer.
11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go."
12. Sing Along At The Opera.
13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme
14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play Tropical Sounds All Day.
15. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party because You're Not In The Mood.
16. Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling Name, Rock Hard.
17. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream "I Won! I Won!"
18. When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking Lot, Yelling "Run For Your Lives, They're Loose!!"
19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner. "Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go."

And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity.......
20. Send This E-mail To Someone To Make Them Smile…It's Called Therapy…

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. That got me laughing (!!!)

Okay I don't know why. But really, people around me are getting crazier. Maybe it might just be me or something. Haha!

Reihan V says:
hahas
i shouldnt be right?
Izah says:
no you shouldn't be.
really.
trust :)
Reihan V says:
yes maam
i trust u 100%
Izah says:
as in
trust HER selenge
HAHAHAHA
Reihan V says:
hahas
ooooo
ok ok
i trust her oso

Haliff says:
haha
sry ah
n SHIT MY HAIR SUCKS!!
Zuhri says:
too bad should be shorter..hahah
Haliff says:
my fringe too short
but my top long
sial ah
Izah says:
alaa can lah. short hair guys are better looking.
Haliff says:
-.-''
Zuhri says:
sooo true like me..
Haliff says:
0.0!!
dats a joke rite?
Zuhri says:
no..
Haliff says:
cmon go see e japan guys ah
hair long nice sia
Zuhri says:
because they sialan hahah
Haliff says:
izah... =(
help me...
Izah says:
haha.
what
come come. love guru here.
Haliff says:
she killin me sia
zuhri i knw u wna say smthin sialan so dun say anythin please
Izah says:
hahaha
Zuhri says:
haha
i was thinking about michael jackson sia...
so random
Izah says:
chill lah. haiyo. you're just SEVENTEEN. according to prophecy, you can be in love later after O's
hahaha
Zuhri says:
lol...
Izah says:
MJ!? Awesome!
Zuhri says:
like i heard that from somewhere..
Izah says:
Mariska Hargitay!
Haliff says:
but u see ah
jambu siak
Zuhri says:
????
Haliff says:
lol
Izah says:
who jambu?
Zuhri says:
?
Haliff says:
....
nvm
Izah says:
jambu batu.
Zuhri says:
buah jambu..
Izah says:
i suddenly think of durian :S
Zuhri says:
ohh
haha
Izah says:
okay.
Haliff says:
wow!!u guys are helpin me alot sia.....
Izah says:
since korang macam sedih sedih people kan :D
Zuhri says:
thanks...
Izah says:
aku kasi joke
uh ape eh...
siapa masuk taxi kena bayar?
EH TAK.
siapa masuk taxi tak kena bayar?
Haliff says:
nenek aku
Zuhri says:
lol..
haha
Izah says:
heh
salah.
Zuhri says:
!!
Haliff says:
siti aisyah
Izah says:
salah.
Zuhri says:
haha..
Haliff says:
bapak aku?
Izah says:
salah.
Haliff says:
bapak kau?
Izah says:
salah
hahahahha
Haliff says:
bapak zuhri?
Izah says:
salah
Zuhri says:
haha
Haliff says:
nenek mr ang?
Izah says:
kau dah kenapa?
salah!
Zuhri says:
answer..?
Haliff says:
u better stop me cuz i can go all day long
Izah says:
takda orang. orang masuk taxi tak bayar. orang nak keluar taxi baru bayar
Zuhri says:
lol..hahaha...
Izah says:
Haliff says:
huh??
Zuhri says:
slow
Izah says:
always.

Anyway, I start to remember, I have this kind of virus in me. Okay not really virus, let me call it "Phonesia".

Woah, pretty cool.

But anyway, it's the affliction of dialing a phone number & forgetting who you were calling just as they answer. Hahahaha. This is so freaky.

And my twin has ulcer when I'm having gum infection! Aww poor thang.

I don't know why, but this thing is driving me insane. I somehow want to post this up, heh!

30 THINGS GUYS SHOULD KNOW ABOUT GIRLS: written by a guy. after years of experience.

1.Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do.
2. DON'T CHEAT ON THEM. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything and anything. Trust me, they will find out.
3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.
4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.
5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.
6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.
7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.
8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.
8.5. If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you didn’t.
9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...
10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.
11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy..
11.5 Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!
12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.
13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.
14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to beat the shit out of him.
15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.
16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.
17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.
18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents, and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.
19. Don't flirt with their moms...that's just freaky.
20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like shit, so be understanding.
21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.
22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.
23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.
24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.
25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.
26. Memorize their god damn birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.
27. Don't marinade the cologne, but smell good.
28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice.
29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.
30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

2009-06-27T20:42:00.004+08:00

This post is from Sepet. Only Sepet. Firstly sorry to all readers. Currently izah's computer broke down and its very sad she cant update her blog, haha!. Recently izah went to tioman and i went to KL. It has been almost a week since we couldnt contact each other. So yea, i bought her a box of chocolate , a shirt and teddy bear. She gave me this one necklace hand-made ( her dad made it) and i find it cool.

But just recently she had a gum infection, awesome. Serve you right,haha! We went to catch Transformers last thursday and it was Super Cool. I like the part where Megan Fox is running, fucking hot! Woooooooh! And then her gum infection got worse. Haiyo

Actually, i wanted to surprise her. I wanted to cook for her a meal but because of her gum infection my plan was ruined. Instead i cooked some food. Overall, its sweeet because she said so. Haha!

7.14pm 27-Jun-2009
Izah ; You've been extra sweet to me today. Just what i wanted. A cute boyfriend. 4months & still counting! (: Love you!

Sepet ; haha! i love you too. You are everything that i have ever wanted

Cute per? Haha! Ok thats all. Will be updating for her. Chowww.

2009-06-17T13:45:00.016+08:00

Love,

Before im off to KL for 4 days, i just want to say how much i'll miss you. And i'll miss you soo much when im gone. I am going to miss you big time, i tell you that. Actually i've been looking forward to today, but ended up you going out with your parents, for that i understand. For 4 days, you wont be hearing any calls at night asking hows your day and stuffs, and messages from me. It'll all be too quiet for you and me. Sayang, i just hope that you'd take care of yourself and please behave yourself when im gone. And yea, have fun with your holiday at Tioman too.

Even though we fought and all, i still love you. I really do. By not saying the 3 words doesnt mean that i dont love you okay. "I loved you yesterday, i love you today and for sure i will love you tomorrow" the phrase that i hold on to. I'll pray for your safety and protection all day. Take good care of yourself ok, goodbye. I cant wait for the day we'll meet.

I love you soo much

From: Sepet

2009-06-11T22:48:00.006+08:00

I know I've not been updating my posts all this while. Yes, due to the activities & camps I had, I was too tired to even swtch on the computer. So now, instead of doing my travel declaration form online, I'm recalling the stuffs I did for the past few days. Ahhh.

6th of June - Happy birthday Sufyaaan!

I doubt so he has the looks of a 17 year-old because he's tall & way too abang abang. Anyway, Arep & I decided to surprise Sufyan early in the morning. As early as 8am. Okay come on, he's at Pasir Ris & both of us are from Hougang. 8am is considered early, especially for people like Arep & me of course. I told Arep to wake me up like, 6 plus? But I somehow delayed & got myself separated from my bed at 7.30am. Anyhoo, we reached at his place at 9 I guess.

The night before that, I was so panic when Sufyan texted me saying he's working the next day, which was on his birthday. He told me he has to be at work at 9am & I felt like suffocating myself by smashing my face into the birthday cake. Arep wasn't any different either. He called Sufyan's mum & they had a deal.

Sufyan didn't go for work. He, a person who has trouble waking up late, surprisingly was all cleaned up early in the morning. We entered his house & his mum called him up... AND YOU SHOULD SEE HIS FACE!

PRICELESS!!! (Damn it I didn't get a picture of it!)
He was in his pink boxers lagi! Bonus!

Hah & anyways that was that :) Awesome work, Rep!

I had Mind Champs Camp on Monday & Tuesday. It was superb! I totally enjoyed myself, the whole of two days. At least it keeps me alive during the holidays.

The picture above, was our lunch. It was Erah's lunch. Heh. She was so happy, she wanted to eat the ayam. But, when she tried cutting it, it was rather impossible. Because as you see, the right ayam, is really ayam. The one next to it, was actually kunyit.

Oh my Goddddddddddddd. *inserts Haliff's/Shasha's/my laugh* :D

On Wednesday, I spent the whole day with the peeps down at Sentosa. Awesome! Okay I know it's pathetic having Sepet's pictures. But Erah had something up & she deleted ALL of our pictures in her camera. Darn. I was seriously affected by it, emotionally. Ha! Hey, me & Erah had our pose by the beach you know :( Gah!

Thursday, I went to school to study. Mr Leow texted me the day before & asked me to come down to school cause he wanted to go through some paperwork. Fine, I arrived an hour late anyway. Stayed in the school library till lunch.

Then Syah, Rei & me headed to opposite to have our lunch. After that, went back to the library & found out Mr Leow went to the gym -.-

Met Sepet after that & we went for dinner. Printed some pictures & met Raa. And yes, she went to take her passport sized photo & hell yeah it was long. Long for a person to take a passport sized photo because she kept on taking & retaking & retaking it again & again & again. Lucky there was Sepet to keep me entertained. Well, entertained by his "marilah sayang!". You wouldn't know how funny he'll make it sound like.

Then there came up my best guy friend who shared some of his stuffs with me. His whole love drama thing. Pretty sad when I heard it coming from him actually, because he was this carefree & fun guy who will try & bully me every nanosecond he possibly could. He has become very matured in his words when it comes to love now, with guidance from every source he searched. He's different from his past, apart from being matured & grown, real love starts to grip him in the heart. For a guy like him, love is what he's hanging on to currently. Because he has faith in the girl. Or should I say, had faith.

Knowing you're not the person someone loves is definately saddening. I'd say I understand perfectly how he feels, & experiencing breakdowns sooner or later isn't a good sign. Especially when he has to focus more & improve in his studies due to O's.

As your best dudette, I'll do my part by being your listening ear & hope to at least ligten up your burden. I wouldn't want to lose the funny/weird/lame/loser in you. You're already like a brother, & hell no I'll let you down just like that. You're awesome before love comes around.

I believe everyone was.

2009-06-04T02:23:00.004+08:00

I start to wonder, when you're still a kid, the word "holiday" still exist in life. Well maybe everyday seems like a holiday to you. Right now right here, this very moment. Even when the June holidays have officially started, I still have to get my ass to school from morning at 8am, till 5pm for revision.

But somehow I got to skip today's 1pm to 5pm revision. Just because I headed to NAFA & LaSalle with Reihan, Sha & Yat. Sweet ;)

And I prefer LaSalle rather than NAFA. Seriously, first impression counts. Just look at NAFA's Campus' buildings. Even if you believe it's somewhat unfair just by judging the building, I have to say that the people down at NAFA, yes, they look arrogant & the person at the counter was very unfriendly. On the other hand, LaSalle's great!

Amot Amot Amot. (Reihan knows this)
(Amot's gay)

We found this exciting piece in the Fashion Design faculty.

I find it awesome! :D Buttface.

Though I'm having my downs right now, I think this picture really lightens up my day. What's better than looking at your juniors acting silly? :)

Start getting loud, let me hear you.

2009-05-26T21:19:00.003+08:00

I know this is extremely ridiculous. I'm starting to lose everything on Malay. Serious shit.

I stumbled upon this amusing fact outside the Chemistry lab at the ground level of my school. Yes I know, 75% of our body is made up of water. Okay that's one fact but the other was: our brain is made up of 75% water.

Okay. Well maybe that's yours. Mine is reaching up to 90% water. My brain's sinking! O.o

Mr Kamal was stressing us on the short period of time till our final countdown, O's. I was about to cry when he was almost done with his blabber. Really, it sends shiver down my spine everytime you talk about O's. But anyhoo, I'm heading off to NAFA with Reihan this hols. A diploma in dance, maybe? We'll see.

Ooooookay so June is coming. Holidays, revision, mass revision in school, extra classes, slack. However, apart from it, a birthday surprise wouldn't be much a burden to me. Oh yes! *winks to Arep*

I've been feeling very lethargic nowadays. Must be my feelings.
Towards some things, of course.

Like how you will stare at me. (Stupid ah. You're giving me a hard time)

Nevermind, let's forget about that.

Well, I'll say love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part them. Because this is what love is. Love is not being breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

Pure as driven snow, I wait for you to defrost me.

I think you're amazing. I think you're going to make a girl really happy one day. God knows you made me happy, & all you had to do was send me a song. I could never describe how you made me feel. It took me months to reach this, but here it is. I hope you find everything you're looking for. I hope all your dreams come true. I hope you find someone that's perfect for you.

You'll probably never see this. But I hope, somehow, right now you're feeling a little better. Even if you don't know why. I send blessings & angels your way.

It is a truth universally acknowledged that when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces. And I hate it when it starts all over again. Because even when my skies are grey, your sun rays can't seem to defeat the madness I'm going through.

This is shit. I feel like doing my malay, I don't know why. Pig.

Ahahahaaaaaa I can't wait to spend my night with Sepet! And others, hah!

*copies Erah* Let's go emo & laugh!

2009-05-20T23:51:00.002+08:00

I am so going to start all new.
Mariska Hargitay!

2009-05-19T20:32:00.005+08:00

Get well soon love,
its funny that both of us were sick after school. its funny.
ouh yes, i miss you. :) hoho
To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.
byebye love,
Off to rest,
From: Sepet

2009-05-17T22:44:00.018+08:00

A day with Sepet made it all better, after what happened.

All the misery & fcukshits.

Had to leave the breeze of cold air by the beach, & we slept in the bus like nobody's business.

Yup, the stars were shining when we looked up, shining for us.

Lots of love, Sepet

Kill me.

Have a final look at ourselves, baby.

2009-05-14T22:56:00.007+08:00

"Some people will only realise how important his/her partner is, only when they're gone. They said it's never too late to do anything, but it's always too late to mend things up, when you know he/she doesn't care.

What we had was real, that is for sure. But ever since that day, we grew apart. I left you because of anger, because of hatred, because I don't trust you. That was my mistake. And that changed the whole of us.

Though I thought I would be just fine without you, since my friends kept telling me to forget about you, memories of you ran through my mind every time love songs start to play. Love songs you dedicated to me, love songs I dedicated to you. Knowing we're falling apart, it only breaks my heart. I can't move on, cause that will make me forget everything we had. Instead, I keep coming back to you.

That's the problem with me, the past is always a door I forgot to lock. I know you're mad at me, so am I towards myself. But baby, can't you see I'm mending things now? I'm trying my very hard, my very best to make it all like yesterday.

Like how sweet your voice sounded on the phone every night. You'll always put a smile on me with every text you sent, with every word you said. How you laughed at me when I came up with something silly, how you tried to control your laughter when you saw me tripped over in the room, how adorable your face would be everytime you tried to make me smile. But most of all, is how we challenged each other day & night, without fail. Remember those times? Yes, I miss that. Sticks and stones are hard on bones, aimed with angry art. Words can sting like anything, but silence breaks the heart.

And to add on during the silent treatment between us, the best thing that happened to me was to have dreams about you. People may find it pathetic, but have you ever feel how sad it is losing someone you really want to be with & when you stop contacting him, the sweetest thing to you was that he appeared in your dream, holding your hands & whispered to you he loves you? Have you ever feel that way? Those dreams were close to reality. And isn't it painful for you when you woke up, quickly took your handphone & searched for his text in your inbox. Believing your dream isn't a dream. And it got into me, I felt like sleeping forever, living a life full of bliss in my dreams. Cause there was you.

Some things you don't know you miss until, out of nowhere, you have them back, or have them back but all wrong. The way, after a dream, where you've kissed someone who, in real life, you'll never kiss again, maybe you've never kissed at all, you wake up and realize, in the throbbing pit of your stomach, how impossible it is to live without kissing them again.

But what about now? You took it & you believed it. You didn't trust me in this don't you?

But at least I still get to hear your text tone ring now. We're in contact already, but there's just no spark. And it kills me everytime I know this is reality. A reality I wouldn't want to be in if I had the choice.

You said you felt like crying after our conversation. Ever wondered how I felt like? It hurts me double the pain than it hurts you.

I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing. But the truth is, to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.

So what do you do when the person you love is the reason behind all your pain? When things aren't the same anymore & you constantly see yourself striving to maintain a perfect relationship? When you no longer trust that person because their words continuously contradict their actions? Have you ever felt this unbearable pain in your chest, but think to yourself that the pain is worth it because in the end you are still with that person? Whenever they are out, you have a million of ideas just clustered in the back of your mind. You try your best to trust them, but for some reason you just can't. You want them to do little sweet meaningful things, but yet they don't. You find yourself so infatuated with this thing we call "love" that you isolate yourself from everyone & everything you once loved. But in the end, is it really worth all the trouble & sacrifice?

Don't waste your words saying things that we both know aren't true. But I hope you think of me sometimes like I think about you. I wonder if you're happy now, manipulating someone new.

It's one thing to ask why we broke up, have you ever wondered why it is we fall in love? Can you tell me, do you know what it is you're looking for? What do we need? Can you tell me why I care? How is it that we hear that voice that says, "I want you there"?

If one day you realized that I haven't talked to you in a while, it's not because I don't care anymore. It's because you pushed me away.

With much love, hugs & kisses,

your cat that has yet to reach the 6th floor, turn left then right & in front of your doorstep,

Manja.

2009-05-13T00:21:00.004+08:00

The pictures below you're about to see is none other than

my two babies.

World, this is Kikie. He is, indeed, a very playful kitten (yes, he's still a kitten).

He loves to chase my mum around the house, it totally freaked her out.

He can be extremely naughty & he enjoys disturbing me.

But that very night, he disturbed me too much he got tired.

So he slept like that (above).

At the top of the picture, you can see the mother cat, Kitty.

This is Chichi.

She is slightly fatter than Kikie because she just can't stop feeding herself.

I think she got that from me.

She's not different from Kikie. They're both very playful.

But Chichi knows how to trick.

She'll purr very softly wanting people to pat her.

But trust me, when you do, the next thing you know you'll feel pain.

Or at least you can have wet kitten's saliva on your hand.

This girl has to see others in misery.

Really.

See what I mean?

As much as she loves her little brother, she still loves to see him in misery.

When you can't sleep in peace, it's the same as you're in misery.

It's like a fact!

She tried waking Kikie up, but he just couldn't be bothered.

After feeling such a dumbass for being a failure, she gave up.

& they slept like this.

The kittens are super cute. I just can't take my eyes off them. Awww, but mum wants Reihan to quickly get the kittens. Well at least that's what Reihan wants, to have kittens, but on the other hand it's pending because Reihan's mum has second thoughts about it. I know I'm going to miss these two fellas once they're gone :(

They cheered me up when I got home today.

On Monday night, yes, I studied my ass off till I burned the midnight oil. I slept at 4am on Tuesday morning. Just because I'm up for Chemistry's paper on Tuesday; but that was what I thought.

After a week of not going to school, I miss all my crap partners/listeners.

I miss you like fcuk! (That was what Lavanya said to me)

So on Tuesday morning, it was the alarm versus me. But apparently the snooze button won! -.-

I was supposed to wake up at 8am but I woke up at 9.20pm instead. Dammit.

I was late for paper! Not late late, paper starts at 11am & I was walking up to the hall at what, 10.55am? When I got to the hall, they were already checking the papers. And then there was a delay. I met my form teacher & he was like, "I thought you're not supposed to be in school?".

Hello, I just recovered. But that wasn't the end.

He took me to the Heritage room so I can take my paper peacefully, without 'spreading' my rash since the doctor said it was contagious. After he left, the VP came in & she was surprised to see me in that room.

VP: Oh gosh, why are you here?

Me: Nah, I just recovered from this rare rash.

VP: Rashes? But then it should be okay already, you should be in the hall.

Me: Oh, it's contagious. Yeah.

VP: O.o ?!

Me: Heh.

VP: Then you should be at home!

She sent me home -.-

The saddest thing was to look at Shasha smiling when she saw me but then I had to go out of the hall.

The saddest thing was I managed to write my name & index no, but then I had to throw it away.

The saddest thing was I sat at the chair for merely 5 minutes, then I had to pack up & head off to the General Office.

The saddest thing was my hopes of meeting my peeps later after the paper shattered when I walked towards the bus stop to get home.

Today's Math paper 1. MATH. MATHEMATICS.

Awwww it's like my favourite subject! :(

Haliff says:
izah!!
IZAH says:
hahaha yerrrrr
Haliff says:
hw r u??
IZAH says:
okay lah.
did you see me tadi when i was in the hall
lolololololol
Haliff says:
haha ya
ure as beautiful as ever
lol
IZAH says:
okay tell me how am i supposed to react?
hahahaha i know that Haliff,
thank you
lol! ;p
Haliff says:
haha
IZAH says:
malu sia semua orang tengok!
Haliff says:
haha yaya
almost every 1 looked at u
dah baik?
IZAH says:
yes thank you very much for reminding.
yeah, dah.
but they sent me home anw.
Haliff says:
haha lol
that is funny
IZAH says:
why is it funny. it's not!
i only sat at the chair for like what, 5 minutes?!
then kena hantar balik -.-
Haliff says:
hahahaha!
IZAH says:
but i managed to write my name & index number :D
Haliff says:
they wana make sure dat u wont spread to any1 else
IZAH says:
abeh dah tulis name, paper kena buang.
Haliff says:
haha dapat kosong ah ni??
good enough
IZAH says:
kosong kan haper. i didn't even look at the qns
Basil told me almost everyone slept after the MCQ
Haliff says:
haha ya sm did
5/1 semua buat seh
kiter nyer kelas tak kesah
haha
IZAH says:
aiyoyoyoyo.
how gini O levels!
Haliff says:
ya dats y
i havent buck up yet seh
im wayyyy behind time
IZAH says:
glad you did realise! :D
then still can ask me qns about girls!
Haliff says:
ohh ya....hehe xD
i really duno who to choose
=(
i feel like breakin dwn
its either e girl of my dreams or e girl who i've been wid for 2 weeks
IZAH says:
you suck.
Haliff says:
....
yea great
thank u
u helped a alot
usin jus 2 words
IZAH says:
yes i know :D

Haliff changed his personal message to, "Studies or Skateboarding...Which is important?"

IZAH says:
eh, you should change your PM. "Girls or girls? Which is more important?"
HAHAH
Haliff says:
wahh talkin to u only makes me more stress
IZAH says:
see, i AM a good friend.
haha
Haliff says:
.....
IZAH says:
hmph
Haliff says:
i seriously duno seh
IZAH says:
i told you to not rush things selenge. you don't seem to follow what i said!
Haliff says:
n zuhri call me a timer n said dat im pickin up ur habit
haha xD
ya i will
IZAH says:
MY GOD! it means you've got my disease! it's pretty contagious ;)
Haliff says:
hahaha

Sha was chatting with me, at the same time.

nurisha. says:
zah,u know congruent and similar triangles??
IZAH says:
you were the one who taught me that!
nurisha. says:
i know2..just 4get which one is which
you know thers AA test kn?
tht one con or similar?
IZAH says:
similar if im not wrong
bcos we learned con first. then the first one i didn't heard of AA test. until the second time which we were learning similar.
you don't have the notes ke?
nurisha. says:
ouhh..okok..aahh..ok,good,u make sense!
IZAH says:
i know i do :D
nurisha. says:
i ddindt bring bck the filesss!
stupid kn!
muahaha!
esk come tk??
IZAH says:
EEE GILA KAUUUU!
aku tak datang tak datang pun, tetap file aku kat atas meja... buat perhiasan :D
nurisha. says:
muaahhaha! haish..biler nk baik zahhh..?????
orng lagi tngh periksa,u strt ur june vacation alr..!
not fair!
IZAH says:
;p HAHAHA
nurisha. says:
muahahaa!

All the best for your mid-years people, muahaha!

Sepet paning lalat today. Aww, get well soon honey! :)

2009-05-09T20:16:00.003+08:00

Stay strong bestie, you know your friends love you. & yes, I'll be there for ya dude!

Through thick & thin :)

2009-05-07T22:45:00.009+08:00

Saturday

Bottomline: Super glad I met them, after a long long while! Okay, except for Arep that is, haha! Went to see Abang perform for Malay Arts Fest at Taman Warisan with Erah. Met Hannah & the boys there.

Yes so we were basically going gaga over this one guy who played the bass guitar. He's super cute until we snapped few shots of him. Okay that was my idea. Haha! He looked exactly like Yan! But much cuter. I swear I don't know what I was thinking, but I zoomed in the picture & yucks, he wasn't what I thought he was! Maybe he got me by his moves & all but not his face. Ha! Now, Yan is waaaaay better than him. Absolutely.

Went sheesha with the clan after that. Erah tagged along. Super kecoh although it's like only half of them. I believe it's a last minute plan. But nonetheless, am very happy to meet them. At last!

So after that I met Arep at Yck & headed home. He was freaking me out, seriously.

I found this random piece of paper inside my bag. A drawing of me. Not exactly me, but it's me because it stated so.

I bet Reihan was extremely bored during English Paper 2 till he drew this picture with my name below. Then he passed it to me after the paper ended -.-"

Thanks, hee!

Sunday

Fariiiiiiiis! Gaha, he enjoyed splashing the water, obviously. See his face! *geram sendiri* Cuuute!

Kakak & Abg Fir asked me out that day. I was actually planning to study the whole of Sunday, but since they asked me out, I cancelled all the studying. Tsk, I know, don't nag!

Monday

Reihan surprised me with this during Accounts class! & I find it veryyyy cool. The words, I mean :p

So that was the last day I went into the classroom. Worse, the school. Had this rare rash on Tuesday till I had to go to the doctor. Went to Aunt's clinic down at Pasir Ris. Got my 2 days MC. Sepet was worried fcuk bout it. He even made a research on this rash. Awwwwwww :)

But it got worse on Wednesday.

How worse? Just picture me having huge fingers, huge toes. It was all swollen! & my aunty was calling me the Hulk. Okay. Hahahahahaha I cannot tahan.

So I went to the Polyclinic instead. All the way I was smsing my girlf Erah because surprisingly, she had the rash too. She was sent home even! They suspected both of us to have HFMD but I believe our mouth are still free from ulcers. Erah got herself injected at her butt. While I got my blood tested & they found out I had some bacteria inside? The doctor was asking me whether I had any scratches & I said no. I lied. I've been having cuts from my cats almost all the time! & yeah they're the reason why I had this thing all over my hands & feet. Urgh.

Then I smsed my form teacher to inform him I'm unable to sit for Thursday's papers. He was worried & he even asked me to stay at home. Ha! *evil grins*

Shasha & Erah was very sweet today to take the trouble to give me my stuffs that were stuffed in the class. Erah, unfortunately, can't make it to meet me, so she passed my stuffs to Shasha & Shasha went over to my place. Awww! She taught me Social Studies & also passed my notes. Okay I keep aww-ing while I'm typing. Weird. But anyway, thank you sweethearts!

Tomorrow, I am supposed to go to school! BUT, this rash is so irritating, or maybe there's something wrong with my immune system, cause it's not getting better! Damn it, seriously. Haliff was exaggerating in a sense that he was very down when I had this rash. Hahaha okay no, maybe he is worried about me :)

Haliff says:
ya hope to see u soon also i do miss ya
1 pendek is not enough
haha
IZAH says:
oit!
HAHA
OKAY
Haliff says:
me n z n e rest do miss ya
IZAH says:
sayang kau ah babi.
Haliff says:
babai siol
IZAH says:
it's babi not babai.
Haliff says:
babi*
-.-''
IZAH says:
haha k sayang kau seleng.
Haliff says:
....
IZAH says:
haha go sleep!
Haliff says:
ape2 ah

Yes, I'm missing Sepet.

No, you're not left out.

2009-05-01T16:48:00.006+08:00

I am seriously disgusted by people who love to assume things, when they don't even have a real hard evidence.

Get the picture girl, we're not kissing.
Get your facts right girl, I am single.

This isn't making any sense. What is wrong with having guys in my life when I'm still single.

Mind you, being flirty is a natural way for a girl to act IF she's interested in the guy, obviously.

Sepet is my date.

Arep is definately my bestfriend.

The NYP guy I use to go back with.

Any enquiries about other guys?

Ass.

2009-05-01T13:54:00.005+08:00

Thursday

I had English Paper today! Okay I don't know whether to be happy or sad, but yeah, I'm done with speech & pollution. Sha & me met Ms Sham after that. We had a run through on the upcoming event we're going to be participating in. Frankly, I don't know what event is that called but the Principal's boss' boss, Mrs Yu, will be there. Unlike the others, I'm honoured to meet her. Even the head of councillors won't be meeting her. I will I will! :p

Met Sepet after that & headed to the library. Surprisingly, he accompanied me & I actually revised my history! Thanks for that, Mister. I know you were bored after reading about your Japan culture book & you were waiting for me to finish my Fidel Castro book. Haha! But damn, I didn't know history was this fun!

It wasn't long though till I reached home. Sepet was unhappy bout it but I shan't elaborate much. I'm getting sick of this.

Unfortunately when I was sleeping on the couch while the TV's on, Ibu shouted at me to get my ass going. She didn't tell me they're having dinner at Furama! I was quite moody at that point of time, but Ibu handed me my towel & I got myself cleaned up. I was dressed all black, with heels on. Pretty classy, I thought. We celebrated Aisar's 7th birthday cum Mother's Day. Oh, & I heard they're going out to Seoul Garden on Mother's Day. Dammit lah, I am so out of that category. Glad Sister is now part of it :)

Went home & terus lepak. Sepet called me but I had to hang up halfway because Ibu left the whole cake in the car & I had to accompany her to the carpark. She was in her pyjamas & I was still in black but now with slippers. While walking up the stairs, we stumbled upon our neighbour, I believe, & he was super.... panas!

Okay dah.

Friday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISAR! :D

I woke up just before my phone rang. Pretty surprising, my girlf called. I was panicky at that time, cause I thought I should be the one calling her or at least text her before she leaves Singapore but it's the opposite. So I picked up the phone & she said,

Erah: Hey I got bad news...

Me: Oh my, what bad news?

Erah: I'm not going, my plane's cancelled.

Oh God. I swear at that point of time I was really wide awake. Like, okay, it's very very surprising to know that her plane's cancelled. What more, we didn't get to perform for tomorrow's Malay Arts Festival because Erah can't make it & we had this "all for one, one for all" spirit. Erah certainly was down that day when her parents disapproved her of performing for tomorrow, but I bet she was super upset today when she can't even attend both. Well babyg, it's not entirely your fault. Besides, we don't blame you about the whole thing. As much as we want to perform, we know it won't be fun without you. What's done is done. I hope to meet ya tomorrow, bring your camera along! (:

So I was rushing out of my bedroom to meet Ibu till I remembered she had to go to Nanny's house. So I had breakfast with my kitties & the mother cat, ha! Thanks to Bro who brought back some pizzas yesterdaaaay, yeay!

Anyway, I can't wait for later. Having dinner at Bedok & then to bowlingggg! *dances*

2009-04-27T21:31:00.009+08:00

Erah was overjoyed about her new MP3 Shahril bought for her. Ha! It's super cute. It's MICKEY, what do you expectttt. I heard Fasha will get one too. Pfffft. *stays calm*

Hannah came to school showing off her new Levi's yellow watch. Bloody hell. Haha yes you know I've been cursing about that. I eyed that watch ever since I saw it on Seventeen's mag. Fauzi bought for her that for her 16th birthday which will be this coming 30th April. Nvmd Izah, there's still Swatch.

My Swatch!

I attended the meeting with the malay dancers & Cikgu. It seems like we got $1,000 & we can't decide on what to do with the money. We did put aside $250 for donation. For the rest of the money, Zul suggested we go to Batam (just because he can buy lots of keropok there) but Cikgu said going out of the country is a no-no thing. What the hellllll.

Then Saturday! I doubt so we can perform for the Malay Arts Festival thing at Taman Warisan. *looks at Erah*
It's okay, one for all, all for one. But I'll still be there to watch the other performances.

This sweltering heat is enough to kill me slowly. I felt like putting in a mini fan in my blouse. Ha! Mampos, tak senonoh.

Oh okay, I just remembered. I was walking home alone from the 88 bus stop & my music was at full blast. I was basically enjoying the beat of the music, till this one Chinese man around his 30s approached me.

Man: Hello, can I know where is block 969?
Me: Uhh. *thinks hard* Nah, sorry, don't know.
Man: But you live here what, you should know!
Me: Sorry but I just moved in here so I don't know all the blocks. *smiles*
Man: Aiyo how long you moved in here?
Me: *why the hell must he ask sia?* Uhhh, 1 month?
Man: Ohhhh. Aiya, this layout ah not good one. All the blocks jumbled up! I from Amk then come here lost.
Me: Ah ya.
Man: Not good you know. I went Houg Ave 8 ah, wah piang, lost already!
Me: Ah ya.
Man: Aiyoo.
Me: *trying to walk away*
Man: You really don't know ah?
Me: Ya, duh?
Man: Ah. Where you schooling?
Me: Ahhhhhh, Amk.
Man: Oh what's your name?
Me: Zah.
Man: Oh okay. You want to exchange numbers?
Me: Uh sorry?
Man: We can be friends. Can exchange numbers not?
Me: Of course not, sorry. *walks away*
Man: Or you want me to give you my contact?
Me: Eee no!
Man: You want?
Me: Don't want lah!
Man: Oh okay okay loh. Thank you ah.
Me: *walks away, for the third time*

Stalker.

The not-knowing-the-block is very true. Although it might be years of staying here, I still don't get where the blocks are. Haha!
What an incident to end my day. Sepet & Yan laughed at me for that.

& I couldn't imagine if Arep were to go home with me today. Confirm he's going to entertain that stalker.
Hahaha.

2.4km run is on tomorrow. Laugh at me if I did well. Heh! :p

Quote of the day: "Your almari macam bom nak meletup! Tabley tahan!" - Ibu.

2009-04-26T23:19:00.007+08:00

Saturday

Girl: *perspiring*
Boy: *stares at girl*
Girl: Whaaaaat?
Boy: Nah nothing. You're beautiful.

Sepet fetched me from Nanny's house & since I wanted to go to Tamp 1, we went there straight. It was super hot & we were both perspiring. Sepet macam hot gitu kan. Ha! Yeah yeah. So anyway, we walked around. It was the first bloody time, Sepet & me had a tour. We went to Tamp 1, then to Tamp Mall, then Century Sq (because I complained I wanted to eat but we didn't in the end -.-). After that, we walked back to Tamp Mall to have a mini lunch together. Why is it a mini lunch? Cause I don't want to be fully bloated cause Ibu is meeting me after that. Also Sepet didn't want to have his proper meal. So we ended up sharing.

Sepet was telling me about Amira & I swear it tickles me. "Pictures can be deceiving!" Haha okaaaay.

We can't control it anymore. We rushed out of Long John (since it was freaking cold!) & headed to Times at Tamp 1, AGAIN. We were practically waiting for Ibu to arrive. She was pretty random. While she was busy waiting for a carpark, she rang me up & complained about the whole jam thing that was going on. Then she hung up.

Random gila!

So when Ibu arrived, Sepet went home. Selenger, don't want to join. Pfft. Ibu took me to Secret Recipe & we had our dinner there. The picture above, was my dinner. Ha! I plucked up my courage & tried something new. Something I didn't get to eat when I was little (I think). Ha! Secret Recipe's Kid's Meal! LOL. & I had my hot chocolate :p

We called it a day.

Sunday

I woke up in the morning dreaming about Sepet. & his family. Lol. It's pretty long. But the whole thing was I had dinner with his family. Random. Hahahaha.

Sepet then told his mum about the dream. & his mum was like, "Itu tanda tanda kena jumpa tu". Yes, but not till you get your bike, Mister. After Sepet had his breakfast with Mum & the rest, Sepet met me under my block. We photocopied Sha's Math paper & bought Ibu's bread & my Kinder Joy! Sad, I got the pinky dinosaur again. So I gave Sepet that toy. Just look at the photo, he was admiring that toy when I took pictures of him. He admired it for more than 5 minutes. Cuteass.

He sent me home after that. Then I was eating in front of the TV when Ibu (she's at home!) rang me up & asked me to go to her room. I seriously don't know what's got into her.

After telling me the whole story, she pleaded me to accompany her to go Geylang, & I agreed. Went there till like 7 plus then we got home.

When she parked her car at the multi-storey carpark, I came across this car next to ours.

Super cuuuuuuute!

2009-04-22T21:13:00.004+08:00

Seeing someone staring at you isn't something I would want. Knowing that someone roll their eyes everytime they see you is very irritating. Very. The cold war has been intensively affecting me.

But I'm trying to get the hang of it.

I'm having cramps all over, especially my hands & my tummy. Thanks to the 5 stations of the Physical Fitness test we had yesterday. Though on the bright side, I had 5 points for Sit Up, Pull Up & Shuttle Run, while I scored 4 points for Sit & Reach & Standing Broad Jump.

That sucks.

I'm bloody irritated I can't score 5 points for Standing Broad Jump. Like what, 180cm? Bloody hell. 5 points is >186. Merepek merepek merepek merepek! Sit & Reach is predicted, I won't ever get a perfect 5 for it anyway. So now, the only thing left is my 2.4 run. I hate that part.

Erah was my hairstylist for today & she did a great job I must say. Ah & she was overjoyed about her new line. Ha! So now I have another 'Unlimited SMS' friend besides Yan. See see, (Yan) I changed your name, eventually.

Yan should call me soon. Cause I miss you, selenger.

Today, Arep is super himbo. Okay not that it's really his fault but I have to stress on his selenger-ness.
Telling someone to be at the block you guys usually meet is different from you telling that someone to meet up & then you yourself waited at a different block.

Arep selenger. Betul.

Thanks Syafiq for the short accompany. At least it got rid of my tiredness waiting for Arep. Then miracle happened! Syafiq spotted Arep. Wow! *applauds*

Damn you Arep. I just can't get over it laaaaah.

So we had our talk. He told me about her. He told me about his another her & so on. His life is pretty much interesting, but nothing compared to mine. Ha! He should know.

I bought Kinder Joy with Lavanya & Shasha. Was extremely happy when I got my other pet, Rhino, a partner! Ha! I know it might sound crazy collecting these stuffs but I can't help it. It's like an addiction for me, both the toy & the chocolate. Aaaaaah!

Yan must buy me one though. *smiles*

Okay okay, I must congratulate everyone in Anderson's Performing Arts for achieving at least a Gold award!
Band - Gold
Malay Dance - Gold
Choir - Gold w Honours
Drama - Gold
Chinese Dance - Gold w Honours

Aww (:

& I felt like posting this up. Lol.

What the gesture means...
-Holding Hands; We definitely like each other.
-Slap on the butt; That's mine.
-Holding on tight; I don't want to let go.
-Looking into each other's eyes; liking each other.
-Playing with the hair; Tell me you love me.
-Arms around the waist; I like you too much to let go.
-Laughing while kissing; I am completely comfortable with you.

2009-04-18T21:13:00.002+08:00

Being a final year student in Anderson, yesterday's Speech Day was the last performance I had as a Malay dancer. It was rather sad, after 4 years dedicating this heart to it, it has to come to an end. The dancers gave their best shot yesterday. They look gorgeous with their make-ups, very elegant in their costumes. I must say, as the head leader in the team, our dancers really shine on the stage. Much much better than how we did for SYF, in fact. Yes it sounded ironic, but I prefer yesterday's performance.

Since some of us are not going to be leading you guys in the future, I hope Anderson's Malay Dance keep up the reputation. Put all your heart in it, flaunt & prove people wrong. That's what I need you guys to remember.

I assume the whole thing ended pretty late compared to the schedule given. After the performance, the dancers were busy packing their things while Erah & me were busy snapping pictures. We can't help it, seriously. Whenever there's a camera, it's hard to part.

So we went to the toilet, eventually, & I removed my lipstick. Called Abang & asked him if dinner is on him. After much consideration, he told us to meet at the other Mac in Amk, near the library. When we walked out of the school, Abang was actually flagging a cab. I was so damn irritated, the fact that he took a cab there & we had to walk! He even rang me up when we're walking & asked us if we know where's the place. Like oh my God, Abang. We've been walking around the streets of Ang Mo Kio for the past years.

We were sweating when we reached there. So there was me, Erah, Hannah, Hafiz, Hairi, Abang Zairin, Abang Din, Bada, Kakak & some others I can't really remember their names. Erah & me took their orders & we headed to the counter with Abang. Hell yeah I got my Double Chocolate & my Oreo Cheesecake! Haha. The rest had their meals. We really had fun. I think we were the noisiest group sitting there.

& just coincidentally, Erah & me met our Vice Principal. Where? In the Woman's toilet.

What a place to meet your Vice Principal. Heh.

At 10pm, we walked out of Macs. Erah & Hairi took a cab with Abang Din as they were heading towards Woodlands & Yishun. Since it was pretty late, Abang gave me 10 bucks for my cab ride. Super cool. Plus, I was damn tired. Thanks ah Abang. Hannah & Hafiz left me after I got into the cab. Bada was with Abang all the way.

Gerek gila!
Will upload the pics soon.

Reached home & slept straight. I remembered Sepet calling me in the middle of the night, but I swear I can't remember what I said. I was sleeping when we were on the phone. Okay I am so very sorry about that. Heh.

When I woke up in the morning, saw Fyan's text. I replied him back, wasn't really expecting a reply from him back as it was seriously early for a Saturday. But he did. Okaaay. Then he gave me a long long text. I read it, & since you said you're not going to beat around the bush, I shall do it too. For me, after reading the whole thing, it really made me have a second thought about you.

& that sucks. I really miss you.

After that, I wanted to reply Nisa, but then I don't know how it happened, I fell asleep but I did send a text to her.

It said, "Sorry, I wadfjh slsdg".

Eheheh. Sorry, I was sleeping :)

2009-04-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

You should read this. Hahahaha. Got it from Erah's cousin's blog.

I had a gd laugh reading thru some of this cheesy Muslim pick up lines. I thought i'll share it here wit everyone :) Cheesy but at least Creative hahaha.

1. OH MY GOSH! I just saw part of your hair, now you're obliged to marry me.
2. Our parents engaged us when we were little, they must have forgotten to tell you.
3. I'd like to be more than just your brother in Islam. (I LIKE!!! hahahaha)
4. To watch you pray is a sin of its own.
5. Will my platinum VISA cover your dowry?
6. You can't play basketball with a jilbab on, marry me, and we will go one-on-one our entire life.
7. Muslims are supposed to have many children, and I am willing to do my part...
8. Will you help the cause of the Ummah by helping me fulfill my deen?
9. Wanna pray in jamaat? shoulder to shoulder, feet to feet?"
10. Assalamu alaikum, so what time does a hur al-ayn (beautiful person from Jannah) like you have to be back in paradise?
11. What school of thought do you follow because I thought about you all through school
12. Can I have your wali's phone number?
13. So, read any good Surahs lately? (khekhekhe)
14. Do you believe in the hereafter? Oh you do? Then you know what I'm hereafter.
16. Lets get married so I dont have to lower my gaze everytime you walk in the room
17. Didn't we meet when I went on Hajj/fought Jihad/ on the day we testified Allah was our lord?
18. I've had to fast every day since the day that I first saw you.
19. It must be Laylatul Qadr. Because that's the night that angels come down from Heaven. (cheeesssyyyyyy)
20. Sister, is your hijab naturally blonde?
21. You remind me of the Ka'aba. I can walk around you all day long.
22. That Noor on your face really brings out your eyes.
23. Do you work for Al-Qaeda? Because you've just abducted my heart.
24. Your father must be Osama Bin Laden, because you're da BOMB!
25. Are your feet tired? Because you've been performing Tawaaf in my mind all day long? (!!!!!)
26. You remind me of the Ka'aba. I can walk around you all day long.
27. Would you like to help me wake up for Fajr?
28. Are you a Shiite? Because when I saw you, I said to myself, "She aiight".
29. I thought the "Hoor al-Ayn" only lived in Jannah.
30. That hijab really compliments your eyes..
31. Do you wanna date? I bought a box full when I went to Madinah.
32. Girl, you fine. I see praying five times a day has paid off.
33. That's a nice burka. Can I talk you out of it?
34. I must have died a shaheed and gone to heaven because you are my 72 virgins all in one.
35. I need to break my fast. Can I have a date?
36. I didnt trip over my thobe, I fell for you.
37. Can I have ur number so I can wake you up for fajr?
38. I know Halal meat does a body good, but damn, how much you been eatin'?
39. Would you like to share my prayer-mat? (khekhekhe)
40. *Looks around girls hijab* "sorry, I was looking for the made in jannah tag"
41. You can be the queeen of my Hurs anyday.
42. After seeing you, the first thing I said was Mash'Allah. The next was Inshallah!
43. Just say out loud - MASHA'ALLAH!
44. My name is BlackSeed, I do the body good.
45. Is it me or is it getting a lil halal in here? (hahahaha)
46. I'm not sure of the Nikah process. Can you help me through it?
47. I just made dua for YOU.
48. Do u remember me?...from the alam al-arwah (9th heaven - where the spirit of the person lives on ever since the first creation of the person in purely
49. You are the reason why hijab was mandated.
50. Have your ammi call my ammi
51. You're so beautiful, even hur al-ayn would be jealous
52. I dont need mahr...YOU are my mahr
53. I'm one of the few guys to get a hur al-ayn not only in the Next Life but in this one as well
54. You are the coolness of my eyes.
55. I love the way your Abaya flows when you walk
56. If i become a shaheed i will get 72 of you!
57. So.. Where is your Wali?
58. Nice ankles. Very nice.
59. I'm not staring, I'm just enjoying my first and only allowed look.
60. Your face shines with so much nur that it could launch a thousand (Jihadi) ships
61. Sister, you are a hijabi fitnah.
62. I'm new here, can you take me to the closest masjid?
63. Allah created everyone in pairs, so what are you doing, single? (!!!)
64. Wow, are you a decendent of Yusuf (as)??
65. You shine with so much nur that you could light up a room..in my heart
66. You make me realise why we're asked to lower our gaze so much
67. Your feet made me lower my gaze.
68. Praise be to Allah, who created you so beautifully full of nur

Things are going smooth now.
*tepuk dahi*

Heh :)

Oh yeah, Anderson got Gold for SYF '09 Mly Dance. Congrats people!

2009-04-05T22:36:00.001+08:00

Yes ah, my dedication appeared on 987.
All the best dancers!

Dance, dance!

2009-04-05T20:17:00.002+08:00

Saturday was super fun as we went to Beatty Sec for dance. It's not an ordinary practice, we & other 9 schools got together & in other words, showed our Syf dance. It's really cool. I mean, it was the first time we participated in this kind of event. Meeting other schools really is an eye opener for us to do better. We had a few schools doing contemp dance & they're super good, like NJC, Yio Chu Kang Sec & Zhonghua Sec. Congratulations to those whom I mentioned. The others had their flaws too, & they're pretty good themselves.

As for us Andersonians, I think we really put in a lot of effort especially these few days of training. Even though Friday is supposed to be a short day, the dancers were willing to stay back & brush up on their steps. No words can describe everything. From all the backstage humour, to all the bruises we suffered. Thanks a lot, dancers.

Trust me, even if we don't get what we expected, I must really thank you guys for all the hardwork you put in. You girls changed Cikgu's perspective & made her really satisfied. You guys smiled your way through. You people won the crowd yesterday. So tomorrow's the only time to shine on stage, with spotlights on you. Smile for the whole 5 minutes, dance like it's your last dance. Be confident throughout, dance gracefully. We've been trained for the past 5 months to create this 5 minutes dance a successful one, the one which will bring glory to every one of us.

To Sepet, I think there's no words to explain this feeling here. Thanks for all that you did, for sure you've been my eye candy. I'll be waiting for tomorrow (:

Pictures are uploaded below. Captions related to picture on top of it.
Pardon for our faces, dance was tiring!